I have been having a little to much fun!!!

142 This AM! Yikes!!! Well, Hell! Sorry, it just typed itself;)

I have had a wonderful week/few days. The night before my birthday I went with my HS friends to a restaurant on the river. It was a beautiful evening and a wonderful night. For those of you that are my facebook friends, sorry about having to look at the pictures twice!
I have been doing a lot of shopping for warm clothes to take to Georgia. I was thinking that I was going to have to buy a bigger size short so I wouldn't have my chub roll, but I found some today that fit pretty darn perfect. Kut jeans, nice fit. Now if I could suck my cellulite out of my legs, arms, and belly.....

Kathleen was my best friend since we 13! 

Spokane Falls, The Pavillion is the former site of Expo 74

It was interesting at dinner because my friend who I have always thought was the most beautiful, was really discouraged and saddened by her body. I was shocked, really? You are beautiful....and then I thought of how hard on myself that I am. I am NOT saying that I am beautiful by any means, I am saying this is me, I am blessed....get over myself!!! I will get back to my ideal weight of 135 again, someday....but not tomorrow. 

My birthday day was spent with my oldest son and grandson. He was his usual talkative self, NOT!!! Hubby and I went shopping without them 1/2 way through the day, I needed a break from starting conversations. Then my other 2 kids and Mom came over for pizza and it ended up being a wonderful evening. Life is interesting as I get older! 

Hubby and I went shopping for last minute things today and we had to get Kansas City bacon and pepperoni sticks for me to take to GA. I found out the pepperoni sticks are made onsite and have a teeny bit of sugar in 100 lbs. Cool....now if I can limit myself on eating them once I get there.  "Free for all food" is not going to do my body/self esteem any favors! 

My husband asked why I was so happy today? What a good question! I feel like I am letting go of things I can't change immediately, and counting my Blessings for the things that don't need changed today. Phew....is this part of getting older and wiser? 

Blessings and happy scales....

Not too big yet! Another hubby taking the picture and you would not want to see the look he got! 

2 weeks, no progress....

A RARE smile from Taryn:) 25th BD

Unanimous vote to get rid of my sweater!!!

We celebrated my twins 25th BD last Thursday. Taryn NEVER likes to have her picture taken so to get a smile was amazing. Notice the blue cups in front of them? They are both big time Avengers fans, Taryn is in love with Thor, so I bought them cups and plates. The waitress used the cups for their beverages:) I think it's pretty cute at 25 to use an Avenger cup! I was told under no uncertain terms to not mention it was their birthday, so my older son did it!!! The sweater I have on, I thought looked good, OMG, it was awful in pictures! My sweet son told me I absolutely did not look like the picture, but the sweater had to go. My husband took it back. I know that is bad, but I would have NEVER worn it again and it wasn't cheap. Matt manages a Snap Fitness and he is very fit and big. About 6'4 and 220. He assured me I did not look bad, but that's part of his job, to assure women they don't look bad! Oh well! My Taryn has the headband thing on because in November she had her dyed red hair, changed back to her natural blonde hair. The chemicals gave her 3rd degree burns and she has been trying to heal it since. She finally saw a wound specialist and she has to be wrapped all the time. It's in the back of her head about ear level. It's wrapped with an ace bandage under the scarf. The moral of that story is don't go from red hair to blonde! Thank goodness the gal actually got her hair close to her real color so she doesn't even really have any grow out.


OK, now to how  I am doing. I actually was up .2 this AM. I was 140.5. I dropped below 140 about 1 1/2 weeks ago, went right back up and have stayed here. I would be more bummed if I didn't know that the yo-yoing has come back to bite me. I also realize by looking at myfitnesspal, I have been 140 way more days that I have been under that. I can't seem to stay at 135 for any length of time. I have continued with my Zumba, I have continued making good food choices 80 % of the time, so I am doing what I can. I leave next Monday for GA and I am certainly not going to be at my goal of 135!!! Also at this weight, my cheeks are plump and it makes my wrinkles less visible! I am really trying to find the good in this!!! I turn 56 on Thursday and I have a lot going on this week food wise.  I am giving myself a break from obsessing. We are going shopping this afternoon and I may just try and find a better fitting jean so I don't have a fat roll. UGH!!!

Our weather has been gloomy and rainy. I got my sun chair out and enjoyed the sun for 2 days before it got crappy. My husband put the sun chair away yesterday and said it was jinxing the weather. His last day of work was last Friday and he is a very happy man! I am happy to have him around, he truly does make my life easier.

If you are reading this and haven't blogged lately, blog....if you haven't started a blog, start! If you want to enjoy the companionship of like minded woman, searching for the Holy Grail of weight loss....join us:) Weigh loss/weigh maintenance, it's all a pain in the behind!!!

Zumba, Zumba!!! I got home about 1 1/2 hours ago and I am still bright red!

How'd I do last week?

Well I would love to say that I had lost the required 1.75 lbs that I needed to get to my goal, but I did not:( I actually gained as of this morning. I did go to Zumba 3 days, I did log on myfitnesspal through Friday I think. I did make REALLY good choices, for me at least, and I am a gainer. I can be honest about some reasons why...
I ate 1 1/2 cinnamon rolls yesterday....we had an Easter brunch at my son's after he was baptized:) Happy for him....and my DIL made homemade cinnamon rolls. I NEVER have the opportunity to have home made rolls so I thought, what the heck? The first was so good, that I went for roll 2. I took a 1 1/2 hour nap when I got home, sugar lull!
We picked my grand daughter up on Saturday and she lives about 2 hours from us. We ate way too much and I didn't drink enough water because of potty breaks. The same with Easter Sunday, 2 days in a row with not enough fluids and too many bad foods.
I had too many calories!!! Until Sunday, I never went over my 15 sugars, went a little over on my carbs a few days, but I went way over on calories for my weight:(
I am hoping the scale will be down to the 139.3 that I weighed last Thursday by tomorrow.....I am HOPING:)
Some things I also learned...
The Atkins indulgence bars weren't the total cause of my overeating, I haven't had one in a couple of weeks and I still over ate.
I have sugar under control 98% of the time.
I NEVER get enough fiber.
I ate spinach all week last week and I still didn't feel healthier!
I WANT to lose the 5 lbs, but I don't know if I WANT IT BAD!!! UGH!!! I get frustrated with knowing in my head that "I am not that bad" weight wise, and wanting more, that is harder to maintain. A part of me just wants to buy some bigger pants and call it good. I'm in a mental struggle now. I tried on several size 6 pants on Saturday and they all fit, they just looked bad to me. I am almost 56 years old....UGH!!! The mental battle continues.
I am on my 5th week of being back to Zumba and that makes me happy but I see all of the young gals with beautiful legs and it bums me out to know that will NEVER be me again. I am not only struggling with my desire to lose, but getting older! Believe me, I am not ready to be old!!!  OK, enough of my woes for the day!
Have a great beginning of the week and wish me luck on figuring out who's going to win, little K or bigger K??? 2 weeks from today I will be hoping it is little K.

I'm ready....Let's go!!!

OK, I'm ready in the head to get this flipping weight back off and be able to put on a pair of jeans and t-shirt and walk out the door, without belly bulge!!! How many times have I started over??? Ugh!!!
So this morning my weight was 140.8. I had a very "filling" last few days;) I am ready, I will be successful, I can do this....AGAIN:(

I leave for Georgia 3 weeks from today and I want to be back down to 135. That's 5.8 lbs in 3 weeks. It won't be easy, especially because of my Yo-Yo dieting, but I know I will be close!

Today started the 4th week of me being back to Zumba and I feel better already. I need to add some extra workouts in, so I have to be creative.

My goals for today are to eat within the BFC guidelines, to clean out my closet and make up drawer, and to do something else physical. I am also going to try and cut down on my news watching. That may be the hardest thing of all!

Life changes again at our house. My husband resigned from his job effective April 5th. He had several re sets of stores coming up and he knew physically that he simply couldn't do it. He recently hurt his back again and just finished up with physical therapy. When he came home and told me the Dr. thought maybe he should look for a different job, I certainly didn't know it meant now. I have to say it was quite a shock, but he is a smart man and I trust him. I actually look forward to having him around again:) We have enough hotel points saved up for 2 weeks in Hawaii, so that's exciting. That's looking at the bright side:)

I agree with Rosalie's blog today that said that if you do stop in to read and leave a quick comment it is appreciated. I know I am blogging for me too, and because it helps to keep me focused. I do know that I read a lot of different blogs for entertainment value and I don't comment on theirs...so I am guilty of being a blog reader/no commenter:) On another note, does anyone know how to "unfollow" someone?

Wish me luck, it's 11:34 and I have been a good girl so far!

Love this:)

Blessings and happy scales:)

We have to "love it" to live it! Me:)

I was just responding to Kim's post and I finished my thought with those words. I really believe it! I think the people that have success in any weight loss plan find a way to eat the foods they "love" so they never feel deprived or unhappy. It's a process, you have to break up with some of your loves, but you still get to keep some of your loves too. I have told people that ask me about the plan  to tell me their 10 favorite foods and we can see if there is a way to incorporate them into the BFC. If their top 10 are desserts, obviously it is not the plan for them. Mine was bacon, pizza, hamburgers, potatoes, hot dogs, etc. I can eat them all, I just adjusted how I eat the, how often I eat them, etc. Like Dawn and her chocolate and Rosalie and her treats. There is usually a way to make and healthy eating plan fun and not dreadful. I feel good about the future of what I can and can not eat. I can maintain this lifestyle without feeling deprived forever. UNFORTUNATELY, I keep having to relearn my good habits!!!

My loves:) My oldest son Grant on the right, daughter in law left and Cy with me:)
He had 2 wins/2 losses and got 4th place. 

I am up to my highest in a long time, 141. UGH!!! I would feel worse if nothing fit and my face was really full again (although that really does help my wrinkles) I think it has to do with Zumba. I am ravenous when I get home, and I let it be a reason that I over eat. I decided that I would concentrate on 1 thing at a time so when I started back 3 short weeks ago, I started eating crazy too. As of yesterday I ate out 5 days in a row!!! 5 days!!! Pizza Hut, Azteca Mexican, 5 Guys Burgers, Taco Time, and finally yesterday Teriyaki rice bowl. I am staying home today! I did however start eating spinach again and cutting back on carbs when I am home.  My sugars are always good, but my carbs???? Let's just say I need some work:) Obviously I am not into high quality cuisine:) I am very proud of returning to Zumba and I actually feel like I am back in the groove. I did not die today! It takes about 2 hours for my face to go from bright red to natural, but that's  a good thing.

Konner! I get to see him in about 3 1/2 weeks:)

I just want everyone to know that I really do cherish our little blogging community! I really feel like I am connected, even when I am bad, I know I have a reason to carry on! Thank you to all of you:)
Blessings and happy scales!!!

BACK UP:(

I am back up in my weight, but not in my measurements, so I am blaming it on getting back into Zumba! Or, that is what I am telling myself. Here's a pic of the girls at Zumba today. This old girl obviously missed the "wear green" message on facebook! I also look extremely chubby in my hot pink, and I usually wear black!!! At least I got in the picture, a lot of the older girls wouldn't get in. Whatever!!! You are only as old as you feel. My husband asked me on the phone last night when I was going to be 18. I think it was an insult;)

I will be honest in admitting that I have been in a food "free for all" and I am wondering if it has to do with the Atkins indulgence bars. I have had one EVERY day! I was going to save them for special occasions, but I end up craving them. Salty things too, lots of salt:( Bad K!!! I have always been of the notion that I needed to get rid of my "sweet tooth" and those bars brought it back big time. They are only 130 calories/6 fiber and 1 sugar, but EVERY DAY??? Note to self....DON'T buy them again!

I am not Catholic, but I just watched the new Pope and it was very inspirational. I also watched the first 2 episodes of The Bible and loved it. My heart is full and my Blessings are many.

So, in closing.....I hope no one is being like me right now!!!
Blessings and happy scales.....

BFC 2 year anniversary! Woot:)

Well hello my little ladybugs:) (Nicki Minaj on American Idol) I am 2 years into my life changing plan, that for the most part, has been amazingly easy to live with. I fall, get up, fall, get up, "etc. etc. etc". (The King and I) But here I am, still blogging, still feeling in good, and most importantly, still keeping most of the weight off!
So I started at 165.4 lbs on March 7, 2011 and today I weigh 138.3.....yes, I "fell" again! I love me some carbs!!!! After my flu I got back to 135, but I have eaten myself well for the last few weeks;) What is funny about my weight now is that for YEARS, I would have given my eye teeth to be in the 130's. So what's good enough? Well it isn't my weight really, it's my waist measurement. This 3-5 lbs, since I am only 5'3" is almost a full size in clothes because it goes right to my waist line. That's how I know the BELLY FAT CURE works....when I gain by eating bad, I gain in my tummy! And then it makes my pants too tight and my fat roll comes back in force....UGH!!!

I am happy to say that I did go back to Zumba Monday and today. I feel GOOD about that. If I can whittle the inch on my waist away with exercise, I would be happy.

Here's some things I have learned:

You can never go back to eating the way you used to....(Rosalie Haggins)
Calories do matter for me. When I eat too many, I gain, no matter how "clean" I am eating.
I don't snack and that saves me 100's of calories a day, I eat 3 good meals and if I eat a treat, it is with my last meal or within a 1/2 hour.
I rarely, very rarely eat past 7 (Rosalie)
I eat a LOT of eggs. Poached, scrambled and mostly with bacon
I LOVE bacon~
I eat Spinach, that's a HUGE change for me since I managed to avoid it my first 54 years!
I could not live with wheat bread and I am back to the bad white stuff:(
I do eat potatoes, they don't seem to ruin me.
I do eat more fruit now that I am basically at goal than I did when I started.
I rarely and I mean RARELY cave and eat a sugar treat. I have no desire. I have given myself permission when I am on vacation or if it is a lemon bar or coffee cake. Seriously in social situations, how often are those offered?
I eat my favorite foods, just less!
When I eat a burger I only eat 1 side of the bun.
When I eat pizza, I pile all the toppings on 2 slices.

There are a million changes I have made, all for the better! My health is great, and I am very excited to share something amazing! I have been on anti depressants of some sort for over 25 years and I have weened myself off and now I only take my thyroid med and blood pressure med. HOW FREAKING EXCITING IS THAT? I do not think they are bad for you, I needed them....BELIEVE me when I say that, but I knew that my life has changed a lot and I wanted to try without. I will go back on them if the darkness reappears.
So my greatest wish is for us to all stay buddies, and our lives to continue to be focused on staying healthy:)
Blessings and Happy Scales....