141.9....On my way down a little more....But I am soooooo angry!!!

I had my physical on Thursday and unfortunately my blood work was not there before I saw the Dr. When I got my test results by email on Friday, too late to call, she wants me to start on cholesterol meds because there is a marked increase since last year. I think I went from 218 to 253. OK, this is why I am so MAD....I have been pretty darn good with my eating for 4 weeks. I have been really good with my Zumba for about 3 or 4 months. I don't know what the hell else I am supposed to do. Yes, I eat too many processed foods aka bacon, yes I probably eat too many eggs. I eat cheese now which I didn't eat much before. I even added the multi grain sandwich thins back a month ago. Seriously....I was so upset today that I had to take 1/2 an anxiety pill to calm down. It is the injustice of it all. I eat right, exercise, I am height weight proportionate. It isn't fair....I even whined on the Sandy's site. I don't even freaking drink alcohol!!!! maybe I should???
So I am thinking about what I want to do. When I owned my little women's gym there were so many horror stories of  people taking the cholesterol meds, then you top that with all of the Dr.'s coming out against them. Honestly, I have taken BP meds since my early 30's, I finally got off my anti depressants, I was so proud of myself. UGH!!! I wish I could verbalize how angry I am . And yes, I know it is not a "serious" medical condition, but really??? What the heck!!!!

So forgive me for ranting. The end.

Say what????

I have truly been a very good girl and have been back on track for about  15 days. My lowest weight was last Sunday and I was 141.7. Today I got on the scale and I was 143.5, say what??? I was so PI$$ED that I thought about what I would really like to eat today and I came up with my Rotel sausage dip and Fritos scoops. I am weird, I know this! I had it for lunch and I am having it again for dinner. Yep..if I'm going to gain a little, I want it to be worth it. 

Seriously though, I know that I will go back down. The increase could be related to water retention, hormones, any number of things. I did not increase in size. My measurements are the same as Saturday, so I am OK! This freaking weight battle is not for sissies!!! 

New laces. I LOVE these shoes:) 

I am still doing Zumba and still keeping my calories in check. I will soldier on. Monday at Zumba I thought I may have mistakenly taken my blood pressure pill because I got pretty light headed and had to slow down. Wednesday, I purposely didn't take it and the same thing happened. I took this lovely picture of my face when I got in the car. It doesn't show the full impact of the RED color of my face. It does show all of my wrinkles:) 

My husband had  job interview today, it was super stressful for me, not him. I know that we will be OK whether he works or doesn't work, but we would be so much better if he did work. It's not in our hands, and I know we are so unbelievably Blessed that I shouldn't even worry about it. I feel guilty praying for something that others desperately need. I sure feel guilty a lot:(  I'm sure that didn't make sense at all. 

It makes us re-evaluate where we are and what we want to do when we grow up? Who knows! If he worked again, selfishly I would have more money to spend, but he would be working. Money/working/money/working???

Blessings and happy scales:)

Zumba RED!

142.2 Slowly headed down.......

I feel better already. I am logging all of my food into myfitnesspal and I love the accountability that it gives me. I really like the days that I do Zumba because it makes me feel like I have really done well calorie wise. Carbs are still a little high at times, but overall, I am proud of myself. I even ate at Olive Garden yesterday and had chicken parm! My calories have ranged from 1200-1400 over the last 7 days, that seems to be a good spot for me to slowly lose. I would love to lose it overnight, but I know that is NOT going to happen:( 

Well, as I am sure none of  you will be surprised, our granite ordeal is a bust. We finally told the guy today after 16 months, we are not willing to wait any longer and want our money back. I know that should come about as quickly as getting the job done. 6000.00 Poof! We do have a kitchen island out of the deal, but I am so sad:( 

I am loving how I am feeling from eating healthier again. I am feeling empowered and proud of myself. I just hope and pray that I can keep up this feeling! I think the fact that I am eating a lot of meat is really helping. I love meat, so that is so easy for me, difficult for some:) Hi sweet Linda! 

Have a great weekend!