Stress:(

Ugh!!! So many things that I don't have any control over. It is making me CRAZY!!! So we got the results of my husband's MRI. Short story....his nerve root is acting up from the original injury or possibly from doing too much now. What will happen? Who knows?????
I love reading the blogs and learning new things, or realizing old things that I "forget".  I wonder if I really followed BFC 100% by the book if I could lose more? Probably, but I might not be so happy:)
Let's just say I was good today and hopefully the scale will reflect that tomorrow. I got my hair done today and my gal didn't mention my weight loss. It bums me out, but she never said "oh my gosh...you have gained so much weight!" either. I guess I can't have it both ways.
I am babysitting my soon to be 4 year old grandson all day tomorrow. I am really looking forward to it, he's pretty easy, I hope:)
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Lunch: Noodle express...pork teriyaki bowl. I only ate about 5 bites of rice and did not add extra teriyaki. I did have lots of chili paste!
Dinner: Grilled sandwich thin with pepperoni, moz, ham and mayo. Salad greens with turkey and ranch and about 5 crushed up chili cheese fritos.
Dessert: 1/3 of small banana with cool whip.
I may have had too much sugar today, but the banana tasted like Heaven:)

Holding pattern....

I am holding on the weight, it seems it is going to take a lot more work to get the scale to move again. I am OK with that. It would be nice if it magically disappeared.
Hubby and I spent the day shopping today. I needed some tops for work out wear. I am finally back in a medium. That feels really good. We also ate at Boston's and I had my usual hot wings and Ultimate Pepperoni pizza. I only eat 2 crusts and eat all the toppings. I am still full and we ate about 2:00.
Next Monday will be 3 full months that I have not eaten any cookies, candy, cake, ice cream, any thing that has extra sugar in it. I feel like an addict who has conquered my addiction. I am also very proud of the fact that I am eating the spring greens salads. I still don't like them, but at least I don't hate them anymore.
I am also trying the whole wheat sandwich thins instead of the whole wheat white....not a keeper:( I will continue to work on that one. I have also tried the sun crystals that Amber talked about in her sugar review. They are OK, but I think I will stick with the Truvia in the future.
My husband should find out on Friday what our future holds. I think they are going to put him on long term disability. Of all things that could happen, I guess that is our best option. We would continue on with medical and he would continue to accrue years of service to his retirement. I am just so ready to finally have an end to this. He hurt his back a year ago March, had surgery in December and 6 months later we are waiting to see what will happen. Actually 15 months later we are still waiting to see what will happen.
Stress makes me belly fat:(
My Navy Sailor daughter got a promotion. I am so proud of her. For someone that hates being in the Navy, she must really hide it well:)

148.9

148.9 two days  in a row:) I have been going up and down. I would guess tomorrow will be up. I had a good food day...in a bad way! We ate at our favorite Mexican restaurant for lunch/dinner. It was good. I really didn't over eat on the rice, or tortilla's on my entree, but the chips and salsa tasted like Heaven.
We had a Realtor come and tell us the value of our house today. It is simply too big for the 2 of us now. The price was terrible, but at least we will have a good down payment if we choose to sell. Too many things to think about:(
I babysat my 18 month old grandson on Friday. He actually fell asleep in my arms on my son's bed. I truly felt my heart explode with love. Blessed:)

-16.5:)

The scale is still moving down! I miss seeing all the blog posts:(
It was supposed to rain all weekend and I got up this morning to beautiful sunshine! It makes my day.

-16.1:)

Woot! 149.3 this AM. Slow and steady, that's me! Today is the start of week 11. So I am only averaging about 1.5 lbs a week, but I will take it. It beats where I was 11 weeks ago!
Zumba, Zumba...

Weight is holding:(

It's been a fun food weekend! Yesterday our date dinner was at The Olive Garden. I had the lunch serving of chicken Parm. I only had 1 bread stick and 1 bowl of zuppa soup. In the past I have been known to eat 4+ bread sticks, 2 bowls of soup and a dinner serving of chicken parm. I only ate a little teeny bit of my pasta since I ate the bread stick. By ordering our dinner off the lunch menu it saved 8.00!

Today after running around we ate at KFC. I had the 2 piece combo meal and just ate a teeny bit of potatoes and all the gravy. My hubby loves it because he gets my biscuit. No coleslaw for me anymore!

I am really, really going to try and exercise more this week. Zumba in the morning. 

It is supposed to be dreary, rainy weather all week. Yippee!

Get down to business?

Well, since it is almost summer and I would like to lose another 10-15 lbs, I was thinking that maybe I should make an effort to add exercise or cut back a little on my food. I really do eat a lot and I could do with much less. My 2 eggs/3 bacon sandwich thin, could be cut in half and I would still get plenty of food. I could eat cheerios more often. Instead of my 6 hot wings I could go back to 4 like Jorge suggested. I am actually, shockingly, I will never tell my friends.....getting used to the greens. With salt, pepper and ranch they really aren't that bad:) I don't ever really feel deprived of food. I still haven't had any "sweets", but I don't even miss that. And then when I factor exercise...I have no excuses. I have been averaging Zumba 2x a week even though my goal is 3x. I have the series of DVD's here along with about 10 other exercise videos that I could do. I have my beautiful Red Reeka that really wants to go for a ride. (see picture at bottom of my page) She still only has about 4 blocks on her mileage. And walking? I live in a beautiful area and I have only gone out to walk a handful of times in the 11 years that we have lived her. I am flat out LAZY!!! That's what I am...I am lazy Kay! So now I have to figure out if I want to be thin or lazy? It sounds like such an easy question and yet here I sit at 10:30 on a Saturday. I am very spoiled by my husband. I don't do yard work and we have our house cleaned. He is out of town 4 days a week so how does it ever even get dirty? I really need to reevaluate some of my priorities. I know Rosie says we deserve these things, but the things I choose to spend money on allow me to sit more:(
So....how do I quit being lazy? How do I motivate myself to really get on the success bandwagon? I have lost 15 lbs, it makes me really happy...but there is more weight to wave good bye too and I want to have a fun summer.
I am requesting "kicks in the butt". I obviously need them. A cattle prod? Hmmm?
Food yesterday:
Breakfast: cheerios and unsweetened almond milk
Zumba:)
Snack: turkey wrapped greens with mayo and salt and pepper.
Lunch: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin (BORING)
Dinner: 5 hot wings and spring greens with ranch
Dessert: Mixed berries and cool whip.
Have a great weekend!

Happy Thursday!

The sun is shining and it is a beautiful day. I was just out in the sun reading my book. It makes me happy:)
So yesterday I had a melt down because I was so angry at a friend. Remember the dog that I was supposed to go over and let out 3 days a week for 2 weeks? Well since there was no end in sight I asked how much longer she wanted me to do it, she said that she can't leave her outside during the day because she barks??? So it went from she was too small to hold her potty all day to now I was supposed to do it until she learned not to bark during the day? Really??? Because I was so taken back I had to cool down before I told her that I would do it through the end of next week and then I was done. Gas for my car is over 4.00 a gallon. I understand her wanting a dog, but why is it someone else's responsibility to take care of it? I don't even own a dog! Keep in mind that 2 other friends are filling in too. I wonder if they have asked to be let out of the agreement yet or if I am the only mean one. Ugh!!! So I think the stress of the feeling bad for not wanting to help and being determined to have an end date cause me to have BELLY FAT!!! I was up a lb today...Sometimes I let the most trivial of things get to me.
Wednesday...Zumba:)
Breakfast: cheerios and unsweetened almond milk. *does anyone know if it ever spoils?
Snack: turkey wrapped around greens. I am actually getting used to it
Lunch: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin....I missed it for breakfast!
Dinner: 6 hot wings and celery with ranch and a teeny bit of cocktail sauce.
No dessert.
Today.....
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Lunch: BAD GIRL...Safeway had their chinese combo on sale so I had the general chicken and almond chicken. I had a teeny bit of the chow mein. According to my tap and track there is about 10 sugar in a serving. Bummer:(
Dinner is going to be a steak and greens with ranch.
I also bought some vitamins today. I got some fish oil tablets and some Acidophilus. I just thought it might be a good idea.
Does anyone else drink about 2 quarts of ice tea a day? I think I make 2 quarts about every day, maybe day and 1/2.
No news on my hubby. I guess they have a verbal OK for the MRI, now he just has to be in town to have one. He actually hurt his back last March moving boxes of gum around. He had surgery December 1st and went back to work in March of this year. He has a 30 lb weight limit and his company does not like that one little bit. Like I said, a box of Skittles weighs over 50 lbs. He was moving a huge pallet of gum into his storage unit a couple of weeks ago and tweaked his back again:( Thus, starting over with all the hoops.
Have a great evening! I am excited to see the final 2 for American Idol. I hope, hope, hope, Haley goes home.
Blessings!

149.8 Woot!!!

I broke the 150 barrier!!! Yay, hooray, so happy!!!
Yesterday food:
2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Turkey slices with mayo wrapped around greens. 10 chili cheese fritos
1 cup chili 5/2 with 2 hot dogs. 10 chili cheese fritos
Blackberries and cool whip.
Zumba this morning, now that I am below 150 it makes me a little more motivated!
Have a great day!!!

Busy weekend!

I had a busy weekend so I have been a bad blogger. Saturday my daughter and I went to a baby shower of an old neighbors daughter. My Kayce and Danielle were inseparable when they met a the ripe old age of 2! They have gone their separate ways (lifestyle wise), but how can you forget the childhood. It was fun to reminisce with the family. We lived by them for about 15 years. I was going through a horrific marriage, subsequent divorce, marriage to an addict with 4 kids (I feel your pain Rosie) , divorce and another HAPPY marriage...and they were there unhappily married through it all. Now that I have been married happily for 11 years, they are getting divorced after 30 years of marriage. Very sad but not surprising to me:( It was obvious many years ago that they would either stay married unhappily forever, or finally get divorced and have a chance to be happy. They sure took a long time making up their minds! So as you can see from that post, I have had an interesting life.
Jeremiah 29:11-13....I knew there was a normal waiting for me someday!
Yesterday we made a 3+ hour drive to my husband's family home across the state. My daughter, 18 month old grandson and SIL went along too. I can tell you with 100%  honesty....my grandson is truly the best child ever. 6+ hours in a car, about 10 minutes of a nap, playing hard, and he never cried....never! We left yesterday morning at 9:00 AM and got home at 9:00PM. No tears, no fits, he's just the sweetest thing ever. They want to move in with my husband and I when her husband leaves for Officer school. I don't know how I can say no, it will be the worst thing ever when they move away:(
I still have not had any sweets since March 7th. There was plenty of opportunity for all the social things. I just don't want to even go there. I did have 2 pepper sticks yesterday...they are like pepperoni sticks but hotter....yummy....no sugar....I checked on my little tracker and they are only like 5 carbs.
Food:
Breakfast: sausage mcmuffin, no cheese or egg.
Lunch: 1/2 whole wheat roll with ham, hard boiled eggs, 3 tangerine slices, black olives, and some potato chips with ranch dressing.
Dinner: 1/4 chicken enchilada and 1 bite of rice.
Snacks...2 pepper sticks! I think the ONLY thing healthy was the tangerine slices.
I did pretty good but I didn't get to drink my water so I feel really slow today. I didn't drink much water on Saturday or Sunday. I live for my water.
I did not go to Zumba today. I am just tired. It is of course a dreary crappy day again. Ugh!
My poor husband drove over 6 hours yesterday and has to turn around and drive back to the same area today. I don't know how he does it. He is the energizer bunny. The best part of being married to him is that he doesn't expect that of me:)
Oh...Saturday I wore my new Lucky capri's size 8. When I bought them 3 weeks ago I could not have worn them without the huge fat roll hanging over. I not only wore them Saturday, I washed them and wore them for the long car ride yesterday and did not unzip them for air once! Woot!!! I still have a long way to go, keep in mind I am short...but I am really happy to be back in the single digit clothes. I am sure going to Zumba today would have really helped. My husband suggested that I break out the 72.00 Zumba DVD's that he  bought for me last  summer....weird idea:)
Have a great day!

Honestly down 15!

So today the .1 was gone so I don't feel like a story teller when I said I lost 15 and not 14.9.
My husband went to the Spine Dr. yesterday and he has to have another MRI to see if he re-damaged his back.  Ugh:( This is such a process. Anyway...afterwards what did we do? We went out to dinner! I had a french dip and again only ate half the bread. I am really proud of myself for good choices.
Today I did go to Zumba! I have also been doing a whopping 10 push ups a day. 5 days in a row, my arms need some major help! I doubt 50 total push ups will show a dramatic improvement but at least I am trying!
Breakfast: Cheerios and almond milk
Snack: ham wrapped around mixed greens...still yucky:(
Lunch: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Dinner: Pork cutlet, green beans and gravy. Yummo!!!
Dessert: Berries and cool whip
So the weekend is here which means date dinner. I'm thinking it will be my ultimate pepperoni pizza and hot wings. It seems to work for me.
Have a great weekend!

150.5:)

OK, the whole wheat pasta worked miracles...TMI, but the lb I gained is gone plus! I am so excited. I posted that I had lost 15 lbs on my facebook. I have actually lost 14.9, but if you count that I was 170 at Christmas, I didn't really tell an untruth. I have been this weight many times and my husband has always offered to buy me a pair of Seven for All Mankind jeans if I lose 10 lbs. I am going to do it this time and after 5 years of offering, I am going to get some!!!
Speaking of my husband, he worked with his boss the last 2 days and she has been pleasant. I think that his going to her boss with his complaints must have helped a  ton. He isn't used to the new and improved model and doesn't trust her, but his last 2 days were not the disaster he saw coming. I pray that he decides to stay with the company. I know that is so selfish, but he has a really good job and it affords us some really nice benefits. I will keep my opinion to myself, he is a VERY hard worker. We see his back doctor today to see if he will lift the 30 lb weight limit, if he doesn't, it is kind of a mute point anyway. His company does not like that limit at all. A case of Skittles weighs over 50 lbs...FYI:)
The sun is shining and it makes me so much happier! It's only 11:00 AM, but I am happy today! I have been going to my friends house 3 days a week and letting her new puppy out to go potty. Today she was so sweet. She's a little Golden and her name is Maggie. I don't own a dog, so I thought it was strange that she would ask it of me, but hopefully it is short term. Gas is spendy!

Up a pound:(

I was up a pound today. It was kind of a bummer, but I shouldn't be too surprised since I have eaten out so much lately. Yesterday was Mexican food with my daughter for her birthday. I knew I had eaten more carbs than I probably should have so I didn't have any for dinner. I guess it just takes time, like it took time to gain!
Yesterday food:
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Lunch: chips and salsa(bad girl) shredded beef burrito insides and a little bit of rice.
Dinner: 6 hot wings and celery and greens salad with ranch.
Dessert: Berries and cool whip
Today
Breakfast: Cheerios and almond milk
ZUMBA:)
Lunch: Birthday lunch with my little sister (at the nursing home....yuck!) My daughter made a whole wheat penne pasta baked with red sauce. It was so good! It was my first time eating whole wheat pasta and I could not tell at all. I ate too much, but I NEED the fiber!!! 1/4 piece of french bread. It tasted heavenly. I did not eat a cup cake!
Dinner: One of my favorites yet....pork cutlet, green beans, pork gravy mix over all of it. It tasted sooooo good! The gravy mix is like 16 carbs for the entire package. It shows<1 sugar per serving, so that is harder to calculate.
Dessert: Berries and cool whip.
It is a good thing that I am a boring eater! I felt so svelte today until I took pictures of myself. It was a good wake up call that looking OK was not what I wanted when I started this journey. I have gone 9+ weeks without sweets so that I could look great! I still have a good 15 lbs to lose. I could be at my goal in 2 months. That is exciting. Being able to wear shorts in public before the summer was over? Wow! I do notice that this is helping my cellulite in my legs. Genetics weren't kind to me. Even when I worked out 5 days a week it was a problem. I think the sugar/insulin was a factor in storing fat.
My problem this week is still getting flushed out. I take physillium capsules and I am eating way better than I used to, but it is a slow process:( I was reading Rosie's blog about the time she was at 10 weeks and she was having the same issues. I guess misery loves company!
I can do this, halfway is not good enough...don't stop now....
My best advice to myself....QUIT EATING OUT ALL THE TIME!!!! I need to stay home more!

Zumba:)

OK I am back in the Zumba mode. I think eating the greens is helping! I actually didn't die! After Zumba I came home and made a snack that wasn't that bad. I wrapped turkey around some greens and ate them. It was tolerable and I was so proud of myself. That actually held me over to lunchtime! I did really good today on carbs, I only had 4 servings counting my fiber. Woot!
Breakfast: cheerios and almond milk
Snack: turkey wrapped spring greens
Lunch: sandwich thin with ham and pepperoni grilled, about 5 chili cheese fritos
Dinner: Steak and more greens with ranch dressing. I am finding that if I cut them up really small they aren't as gross. No carbs at dinner!
Dessert: Berries and cool whip.
Another day. I can't wait to lose the next 5 lbs!

-14.3

Another good scale day, especially since I was up a little yesterday. I LOVE BFC!!! I am going to Zumba today. I have missed a full week with no real good excuse:(

Where did everyone go?

A few of  the blogs that I was following have kind of dropped off. I wonder if everyone has the springtime blues? I had a much better day today. My hubby and I hung out and that always makes me happier. We went to Costco today to get my bacon and buffalo wings. Holy cow, I think I went through a package of the pre-cooked   bacon in 1 month! Same with the buffalo wings. I like this "cure"! I was a good girl and bought more spring greens. I found last week that I didn't have enough just plain meat so I remedied that too. I am excited for the week ahead. Of course it's my daughter's birthday Tuesday and my little sister's birthday on Friday, so those will be eating out days. For Mother's day tomorrow we are going to my oldest son's house and we are just getting Pizza Hut pizza's. All 3 of my grandkids will be there so it will be a very good day! I do miss my twins a lot though:( One is floating around somewhere outside of San Diego on a ship and the other one is still in Oklahoma.
Breakfast: cheerios and almond milk. 3 pieces of bacon:)
Lunch and dinner: chips and salsa at Mexican restaurant. Chicken and Cheese chimichanga, and a shredded beef burrito minus the tortilla. A tiny bit of rice. It tasted sooooo good!!!
Today was the 2 month mark of no sweets! No cookies, candy, cake, donuts, ice cream....Yay!!!

Still in a funk:(

Really, really inactive day. I did not go to Zumba again. I have effectively missed an entire week. Maybe shaking things up a bit will be good for my "cure". Gotta fool the old body into thinking it isn't bored.
I think I know what my problem is. I see all of these Mother's day ads and even though my mom is alive and lives less than a mile from me, we haven't spoken for many months. Her choice because I didn't agree with putting my 46 year old sister into a nursing home. She has cut off my older sister, me and all of my kids. How can you cut out your great grandkids? It is beyond my comprehension. She didn't even call my daughter when she lost her baby??? How does that happen? Her view of the world is totally different than mine and I pray every night that I will NOT be like her.
So, when Mother's day is over, maybe  I can function again.
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 4 bacon *I was hungry, sandwich thin
Lunch: grilled sandwich thin with pepperoni and ham. Greens and ranch, chips (bad girl)
Dinner: Chili 5/2 and 2 hot dogs.
Dessert: Berries and cool whip.
I sure am boring! Oh well. Whatever works.
Happy Mother's Day to any Mom's out there!

-14.2

151.2 today. Pretty exciting! Especially since I have eaten out so much lately.
I am in quite a funk. I don't know how to get out of it because I have no reason to be in "it". I guess the gloomy, dreary weather is still getting to me. I take lots of Vitamin D but when it is still winter in May, it must not be working. My 56 year old husband is also thinking of retiring from his job because he hates his boss so bad. He has been with them for 25 years, so he has the length of time in. Thank God his parents beat into him the importance of saving money. My parents didn't seem to be able to get that message through to me. That and being a single mom for many years.
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin.
Lunch: 2 hot dogs with sandwich thins as a bun, greens and ranch:(
Dinner: Salsa chicken, a few potato chips (I don't get it either?) 1/2 sandwich thin grilled.
Dessert: Raspberries and cool whip.
Tomorrow will be the 2 month mark since I had any sweets.......weird!
I really, really wanted a 1/2 banana tonight instead of berries, but it was 9 sugar. I will be excited to lose down to my goal so I can have bananas again.
I am supposed to go to Zumba tomorrow but my funk may keep me home. I wish I could count my blessings and quit being bummed. I had such a good day Tuesday with my friends and so much fun last night at my grandson's baseball game. Perk up Kay!!!

It's a great day to be alive!

I went to my grandson's baseball game this evening. He will turn 4 in June. My son was an incredible ball player and I spent many, many, many days at baseball games. It is a dream come true to have it continue! In my humble opinion, he is too young, but they didn't ask me!
I did not go to Zumba today. The 2nd time I have missed this week. Bad girl. I have had so much going on, I just wanted to sleep in and relax. I loved the time this morning.
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin.
Lunch: turkey slices rolled around greens....greens again! I was so proud of me! I knew that I would be going to McDonald's before the game, so I saved my carbs.
Dinner: McDonald's double quarter pounder, only the bottom bun, maybe 10 fries.
Dessert: Berries and cool whip.
I think I get activity credit for chasing around my 18 month old grandson at the baseball game. He wanted to play so bad. It was so sweet.

151.7 Woot!

Back down this morning:) Tomorrow should be interesting. Eating out 2x today could not have been too good.
Breakfast: cheerios, cream....it was so rich, I couldn't finish. I didn't want my whipping cream to go to waste.
Lunch: Individual pepperoni, canadian bacon pizza. 2 crusts and all the toppings.
Dinner: Olive Garden...NOT ONE single breadstick! Zuppa soup, chicken parm and a couple of bites of pasta. I gave away my mint! Good for me!
Dessert 1/2 banana with cool whip.
I am finally done with every social thing I have had to do over the last 3 weeks.  Now maybe I can get serious and fit into my new jeans I bought. That would make me happy!
Good luck everyone!

3rd try!

I have written this blog 2 other times, it mysteriously erased itself right when I was finishing up. Maybe the words weren't meant to be? So....here's the 3rd try.
What do you think of this Strawberry jam recipe? I know it has the diet soda, but very little artificial sweetener would be in the whole batch?

BlessFresh Strawberry Jam (No Added Sugar)
Makes 1 3/4 cups

3/4 cup diet lemon-lime soda
1 package (3 ounces) sugar-free strawberry flavored gelatin
1 1/2 teaspoons lemon juice
1 cup mashed fresh or unsweetened frozen strawberries

In a saucepan, bring soda to a boil. Remove from heat; stir in gelatin 
until dissolved. Stir in lemon juice and strawberries. Pour into jars 
or plastic containers. Cover and refrigerate up to 3 weeks. Do not 
freeze.

Oh for gosh sakes....I can't make this look right and I don't care!!!!

I know we aren't supposed to have artificial sugars, but this looks like it would be way less expensive than the Nature's Hollow.

OK. I am up .3 lbs. 152 and holding for 2 days in a row. I guess I can live with that. A good thing that I did was buy some organic spring greens, and I have eaten them for 2 days in a row. I was concerned about my energy level at Zumba, so I am trying something that everyone else seems to do. I don't like it, but I am doing it!

Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin

Lunch: grilled sandwich thin with pepperoni, ham, moz. Salad greens with ranch.

Dinner: leftover fish, left over hot wings, salad greens and ranch. toasted sandwich thin for good measure. 

Dessert: 1/2 small banana. I am burning out on berries. I know banana's have a lot of sugar,

but I need the fruit and I think it is still within my 15 sugar. 

Tomorrow I have a pizza luncheon and Olive Garden for dinner. Wish me luck!!! 

Then I am done, done, done (for awhile) with social eating!!!

Still no sweets since March 07th. Woot!!!