Here's some ramblings from my brain as I sit here all ready to go to Zumba and could not make it safely out of my neighborhood. The paper not being delivered should have been my first clue. It snowed about 7 inches Sunday night and of course neighborhoods don't get plowed. All of that snow is now in deep ruts and totally frozen. Not only does my car have a very low clearance and it is 4 wheel drive, it was not able to escape those ice ruts! My husband is very happy because he didn't want me to venture out in the first place, at least someone's happy!
So here is what I was thinking after reading Pattie's blog about weight fluctuations, which by the way happens to me every day! I weigh every day, unless I know it is going to be REALLY bad, because I like to see where I am. I have a nice scale, but every day, I weigh something different. When I am dehydrated, I love the scale because it shows a lower number, when I am full off doo doo, I hate the scale because it is higher! I think the initial weight we lose on any diet is water and excrement, not fat. True fat takes awhile to exit the body. I also think that a week of being really good, can be undone in 2 days. A one day splurge, at least for me, doesn't really affect my weight if I get back on track the next day. I digress....
Do you really, really, really want to be thin? Society believes we should be, but do you? I am not talking about people that need to lose a lot of weight for medical reasons, I am talking about losing that last 10-20 lbs because we think we should, to fit in, to fit the mold. I think about this a lot because I am about 6 lbs over my lowest weight. Out of the last 2 years of doing the BFC, I have been about 6 lbs over my lowest weight, way more that I was at my lowest weight. Was I happier 6 lbs ago? No. Did my clothes fit better? Yes. Is it worth it for me to really TRY to get back down there? That is my question to myself! And I ask that question to all of you that just haven't gotten to that goal yet. Do you really, really want to? Give up the foods/wine etc. that you love for 20 lbs? Is it worth it to you to make the tough changes for YOU, not because you think you should? I could be wrong, but I think that is part of the struggle when you have lost weight, feel better, look better....do you want to finish the job? I have said for years that I just want to be able to put on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and not have a fat roll. Is that too much to ask in life? Well 6 lbs ago, I was able to do that. Now I am overly conscious of the nice little bulge around my middle. I hate it, but do I hate it enough to change my eating habits? I don't have the answer for myself yet, so I don't have any answers for others. I do know that I am going to go back to working out and see if that changes things. I know it will because of the calories I will burn and the muscles that I will gain.
I know for me, I eat WAY healthier than I did before I started this journey. I truly do not miss sweet goodies at all, but I missed my bread and potatoes enough to add them back in. It was not just adding them back that made me gain some weight, it was adding back 1/2 loaf of Italian bread, not one or 2 slices. It was adding back potatoes at ever meal and not just 1 meal a day. It was eating spinach or a veggie once a week, not once a day. I have eaten TOO many carbs, not just the carbs.
So I will keep questioning myself, but I will keep doing what I know is working to keep the majority of the weight off. I still think SUGAR is the enemy and I can live quite peacefully without it!
I would love to hear your thoughts if you read this? Do I make any sense? Do you feel the same at times?
Blessings and happy scales!
Yes sugar is definitely the enemy. We do all have to decide what is best for US and what we want. For me - I gave myself a 5 lb window to work with and like you I weigh everyday. If I go over that 5 lbs then I know I am eating too much and will adjust.
ReplyDeleteI know you love your carbs, maybe just eat less of them and I'm sure you will be fine.
Have a great day :-)
Yes I know what you mean Kay. There are some days that I think, gosh, I'm down in weight quite a bit from where I started, even though I'm not at my goal yet. Do I really want to keep doing this? I am going to be 52, I can't look like a twenty year old ever again. I think that's why sometimes I give in a little and have those few glasses of wine, or a dinner roll. But you know, I actually do want to see if I can do it. Even if all I can do is maintain, I know if I give in any more that I have already that I'll get heavier and heavier. Yuck! Plus, all in all I feel better, so maybe if I get to goal I'll feel the best! That's what I have to find out! Besides if I ever gave in and started eating sugar again, my family would never let me hear the end of it, after all the lecturing I've done!
ReplyDeleteYou know I've been wrestling with this question for the last year (and a half? LOL) and what it boils down to is how YOU FEEL. I think that I must have been fine with the 140s for the last year, and now I'm finally back into the mindset to get below again. Can't do it without work. :)
ReplyDeleteGood point. It is so easy for weight to creep up again. If you are down to a nice low point, a few pounds seems easy to deal with. For me, at this point, a few pounds could eventually put me back to my starting point. I still have that roll that spills over my jeans, and still feel that i could be healthier, lower my blood pressure and feel better if I could at least lose another 20 lbs. My goal is to lose another 40 lbs, but I might settle for 20. I'll let you know when I get there!! XO
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