143 again!!! Woot!!!Zu

Zumba, Zumba:)

Good morning:) I am being lazy instead of getting ready to go away for the weekend. These are my cute new Zumba shoes. They are actually Nike Free Runs, but the bottom is flat enough they will work. My real zumba shoes were dorky. I am sure that  these shoes are the answer to me looking remotely like the instructor! NOT:)
I had a wonderful day with my friend at her neighborhood pool yesterday. My legs look really tan, which they are! I know it is bad for you, but it is my vice, and I love having tan skin. We all have things we can't live without! Sunshine is mine and I live in the Pacific Northwest????????????
My hubby and I went shopping so I would have a dress to wear to the wedding this weekend. I ended up with the same dress that I had bought a several weeks ago and took back because I felt guilty. It was on sale now so I actually saved about 30.00. That was cool. Then we used an Entertainment book coupon on the shoes that was worth 15.00 and then I bought some jewelry at Penny's using their 10.00 off coupon. I sent my husband to find a salesclerk to beg for a coupon. She found one in the garbage and gave to him. I am never prepared with a coupon unless I am at Macy's. We went to the food court at the mall because my husband LOVES Ivar's chowder. I made the same mistake I always do and got general chicken, almond chicken, and chow mein. I do this every time and it is always gross. Maybe that is the idea? I don't eat very much of it and throw it away. My husband said, "You didn't even eat any of it" when I tossed it in the garbage. I had eaten enough...."not worth the calories"! The sugar in the general chicken did make my tummy queasy enough that I didn't eat dessert when we got home.
So this morning I decided to give the nasty tortilla another try. I sliced up little smokies and then scrambled them with eggs. I then put some salsa on the tortilla and microwaved it to soften and warm. It made a good breakfast burrito. Maybe the salsa is the key to making the tortilla palatable? I know I love the effects of the fiber they have.
We are going to a wedding that is about 4 hours from here so we are spending the weekend there. Tomorrow we are going to Leavenworth which has a bakery or candy store on every corner. It will be fun, I may just break my no treat rule, I have to eventually. I worry that my tummy will be sick all the way home. I do know that I am introducing fruit sugar into my system before we go to Hawaii. I LOVE fresh pineapple and I can't imagine not eating that there.
Blessings and happy scales...Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend:)

143....down 22.4 lbs!!!

OK, I have started this dang blog post 3 times. I keep accidentally switching the page and losing what I have written. Ugh!

Matthew takes pictures with me:)

Matthew and Taryn about 4 weeks old.

My Matthew is home:) He's over 6'4, so I am not as short as I look. Even with the weight loss 2 days in a row, I see this picture and think "gross". I do NOT like looking older:( I am not fishing for compliments...I am being honest. I didn't have time to fix my hair this morning, it looks flat and I look really chubby. I know that I have come so far, but dang:( That's 2 dangs! Matthew is a charmer and mentioned my weight loss right away. He will make a good husband someday. He and his twin could not be more different. She sent me a text today that said "we are in San Diego". After her leaving without a hug or a kiss, the text felt like Christmas! In my mind it also included, I love you and miss you!
This is a picture of the twins shortly after they were born. Matthew was almost 2 lbs bigger at birth. He is now over 6'4 and Taryn is about 5'5. Matt was 7.6 and Taryn was 5.10oz. 13 total pounds of babies and I was looking huge:)
OK, so losing 2 days in a row made me think that my eating bacon all the time might be slowing things down. I haven't had it as much this week because I have been gone in the mornings. I did start to have it this morning and it just didn't taste the same. Weird, in a good way!
For dinner last night I made taco meat with a little taco seasoning and some salsa. I baked the nasty tortilla's with butter and cheese until they were crispy. They still tasted nasty. Maybe dipped in salsa would have helped. We then had spinach and taco salad. It was good in that I finally ate something green, but not a favorite meal.
Dinner yesterday: Spinach taco salad with ranch and chili cheese fritos.
Dessert: 1/2 Clemmy O.
Breakfast: Sandwich thin with 2 eggs, 3 bacon. I only ate 1/2. It did not taste that great.
Lunch: Stopped at Zips for Matt to get a burger. I had 2 chicken strips and about 4 fries with tarter.
Dinner: hot wings and spinach salad with ranch. 1/4 cheesy potato.
Dessert: Clemmy O.
Snack during the day....cherries. Karson wasn't here later in the day to share. I'm not sure exactly how many I had, but they were tasty.
I love reading everyone's blog, please don't go away!!!
Blessings and happy scales! Life is good!!!

143.8!!! Woot, woot, woot!!!

The scaled budged....slightly, but I will take it. I am on a new number:) 143....woo freaking who!!!
Just a couple of things. I love ZUMBA:) It kicked my behind again today, and it makes me smile. What else can do that?
I had leftover enchilada's for lunch. I added a little salsa on top and then microwaved. It actually made the tortilla taste less nasty and I ate the whole thing. Not a lick or a bite left on my plate....so much for good intentions:) But...I will eat the tortilla again now. I just need to get used to them.
Dawn, good luck developing a taste for whole wheat again! Ick!
I have another confession. I have been eating cherries. I eat 1/2 and give the other 1/2 to my grandson. We go through about 6 per session, so that is 3 cherries at least 2x a day. It didn't effect my weight loss! And I am happy eating a cherry:) Just saying:)
I don't know what is on tap for dinner. Something that is BFC friendly....it will be day 3 of cooking for me. Wow! Dessert will be 1/2 Clemmy O. They were advertised in our local paper today on sale. It also showed they had Clemmy's ice cream. I haven't seen it, but there is a bigger store that I may have to try.
Blessings and happy scales....Kay's happy today:)

My favorite lunch!

Always leave a little on the plate:)

 So here is my plate right before I threw it away, thanks Pattie for the smart idea.
And the next picture is my yummy sandwich. It has mozzarella cheese, mayo,  ham, and pepperoni. I turn the sandwich thin inside out and grill it to melt the cheese. It is yummy....and it would be a 2/2 because of the sandwich thin. Then I have a few chips and a few chili cheese fritos. A very satisfying if not somewhat unhealthy lunch. This is why the BFC works for me! I really put more chips on the plate than I ever eat. I think it is knowing that I can have a couple that makes me feel satisfied.
I had a weird breakfast, but not for me:)
Breakfast: pork chop, mashed potatoes and gravy from dinner last night.
Lunch: sandwich
Dinner: Homemade enchilada's with the carb smart tortilla. I still don't like the taste:( I am going to try and get used to it in different ways. I do love the fiber content.
Dessert: Raspberries and cool whip. No chocolate today.
I have cooked dinner 2 days in a row! Woot!
I was asked how much water I drink. I drink a TON of water. I love water. I drink about 32 oz just when I am doing Zumba. I have ice tea with every meal and I drink water all day. My hubby always fills my ice and water glass when he is home. It is sweet:) I do go potty a LOT too.
Blessings and happy scales:)

Yummy sandwich:)

The scale is a stinker!!!

OK, so Saturday morning I was down to 144.1. That is my all time low. 21.3 lbs lost. Then I went back up, this morning I was back to 144.4. I think I have been at this point, within a few ounces, for at least a month. I start to get frustrated and then I realize my pants fit a little different or I don't have as big of a muffin top. Today I wore my size 6 Lucky capri's in public. I did have a bit of a muffin top, but when I went to the store, I wore a shirt that disguised it. I can't wait to put on a tee shirt and pants and not have a roll. I will get there! Slow and steady!
My hubby moved a bunch of gum yesterday and he took the day off because his back is sore. He is going to the Dr. in the morning. I swear this is the never ending nightmare. He did go grocery shopping with me and I got some good food. I am excited to eat the next few days. I am like a child with candy...but I don't have candy:( I do have more Clemmy O's!!! Pepperoni, little smokies, pork chops, more wraps for fiber. Woot!
I think I have said before that I am not a "cook". I make super simple, packaged foods. I know, bad....but I am eating spinach now:) So my last few days of food is for my "simple" tastes, but totally satisfying to my hubby and I.
Sunday:
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Lunch: sandwich thin with Nature's hollow jam and PB on 1/2, Jam and butter on 1/2
Dinner: Store bought fried chicken, baby red mashed potato's and packet of chicken gravy. Yummy!
I did not have dessert.
Today was Zumba....It was great, but hot...
Breakfast: cheerio's and UVAM
Lunch: Leftover chicken sandwich with mayo and chili cheese fritos
Dinner: Shake and bake pork chop, mashed potatoes, pork gravy packet
4 cherries...I know, high sugar, but they called my name at the store. I have discipline to only eat a couple.
Dessert: 1/2 Clemmy O. Yummy!
There is a very common theme in the last 2 days...no veggies...bad Kay. I just don't like them. I was eating green beans, but I got sick of them and I am sick of spinach salad too. Sick, sick, sick:) I will get back on track soon.
I am excited for dinner tomorrow. I am making enchilada's with the high fiber wrap. Hopefully it will taste just like the regular with sauce and ground beef. My hubby will be home all week! That's unusual. We also have a wedding out of town this weekend so we are staying in a hotel. There is a really cool, quaint, Bavarian village called Leavenworth that we will go to on Sunday. I'm excited to get the heck out of town.
Blessings and happy scales...I am about ready to break mine into little pieces!!!
I almost forgot...I took Patties advice for my lunch and dinner....I left a few bites! I love it, I will keep doing it!  It is so easy and makes me feel impowered!

Temptations galore!

My husband warned me that when my daughter moved in she would be making cookies and having tempting food around. What an understatement!!! There is always Oreo's in the cupboard and licorice everywhere. Today she made brownie stuffed chocolate chip cookies. Really??? What is so bizarre to me is that I don't eat one, don't even want one. I'm still waiting for the Coscto chocolate almond ice cream bar. The sugar free yogurt that I ate the other day wasn't that bad. A gal posted the link to the company and it looks like it was 5/2. That is an entire meal, but it tasted pretty good.
Did anyone watch Rachel Ray yesterday? It was another show about sugar and a diet that is a 3 day detox. It was really good information. If you can watch it, do:) I forget what the diet was called, but he pointed out all of the things that sugar is hidden in too.
I did Zumba 3 days this week.....Yay for Kay!!! I am back!
Breakfast: Toasted sandwich thin, 1/2 PB and jelly 1/1 jelly and butter
Lunch: Burger patty in toasted sand thin, tiny bit of chips with ranch
Dinner: 1 piece pepperoni black olive Papa Murphy delight pizza, spinach salad with leftover steak, ranch and chili cheese fritos.
Dessert: Fresh raspberries and cool whip. One square of the endangered species dark chocolate. It is growing on me.
I really wish the scale would budge. I have been this weight about 10 days. Ugh!!! It is better than the alternative.
Blessings and happy scales! Have a wonderful fun filled weekend. I am hoping for sunshine!!!

.1 up, but very happy with that:)

I was 144.3 this morning and very happy with that. I have been a very bad girl all week. I have gotten back on track today and I feel good:)
I wanted to share a fun thing that I used to do when I owned my women's gym. Every Wednesday was "Weigh and Win" day. Everyone that worked out would put their name in a basket and I would give prizes, usually Victoria's secret lotions....I LOVE Amber Romance.....or Bath and Body hand wash. I had a Tanita Body Fat scale and we recorded their weight every week. I would say about 70 % of the women participated. Some never weighed because they were going to wait until they lost some weight first. I would always say "how will you ever know how far  you have come, if you don't know where you started?" Anyway...I had some bright colored stickers that said "I'm a loser" on them. It was a true honor to get a sticker and the women would wear them through their workout. The fun part was that they would forget they had them on and go to the grocery store or do chores after they left the gym. I heard a lot of funny stories of people asking them why they were wearing an "I'm a loser" sticker:) I had a group of 5 women that would come in and weigh, work out, and then go pig out at a favorite restaurant! We are all funny about how we look at the scale. I miss those ladies a lot:(
My son in law left early this morning for Officer School in GA. Now it is just my daughter Kayce and my grandson Karson here. Hubby is still working out of town most of the time. I think things will be a lot calmer now that there are fewer people to fight! Kayce is meeting a friend for dinner so Karson is going to his other Gma's house to visit. The house is quiet! Thank you for the encouraging words about my daughter Taryn. My prayer is that she will grow up some day. I don't know if anyone is familiar with Aspergers Syndrome? She is basically fits every question in the book. I try and not take it personal, and at the end of the day, I tried. It is a form of autism and most people that have it kind of grow out of it as adults. Social difficulties are very evident with her. She saw one friend, one time, the 2 weeks that she was home. It is sad:(
My food for today, even though it is only 4:00 PM here...I will be true!
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Lunch: tortilla with turkey, mayo and 2 bacon....about 10 chili cheese fritos. I know, way too much bacon!
Dinner: Grilled steak and spinach salad with ranch and chili cheese fritos. Yummy!
Dessert: Berries and cool whip
Blessings and happy scales....

144.2 and holding....

I must like this weight, it doesn't want to seem to change, however I have been a very BAD girl so hopefully it will not change higher. Yesterday my Sailor daughter left, just like I expected....a blow up and no hug or kiss good bye. Maybe in 8 months she will miss me. It was such a bad emotional day I don't even know what I ate. I do know what I ate today!
Breakfast: Cheerios and USAM.
Zumba, Zumba...Beth, it is for EVERYONE. Every shape, size, age, and fitness level. The key is to do what you can do, and slowly progress to dream about looking like the instructor. You don't have time to really look around at other people, so I doubt other people are looking at me. You can't help but have a smile on your face through the workout. It kicks my butt every time. I can shake my booty and I am old!
Lunch: General Tso's chicken and beef and noodle chow mein. I met my friend today because yesterday turned out to be so fun. NOT!!! It was a new restaurant and each item was inexpensive, so I tried both. I ate 1/2 for lunch and 1/2 for dinner. I did not eat all of the noodles, but I did eat a lot of veggies that I wouldn't typically eat. She had this nasty looking sushi thing. I will NEVER understand eating raw fish. Yuck!
Dessert: raspberries and 1/2 a Clemmy O.
I hadn't seen Dawn (the gal I met for lunch)  for over 6 years. She has put on a lot of weight. I encouraged her to try the BFC, but not in a suggestive way. She said she is almost ready to start trying something. I hope she does get the BFC material and I can help her.
I am totally understanding my BFC friends who are menopausal. Even though I had a hysterectomy, I kept my ovaries so I do have emotional issues. I should be the happiest girl in the world and I can't be. Maybe if I would track my down times, it would make more sense to me. I have a full physical next month. I am really excited because I was on the verge of cholesterol meds. I can't wait to see what a change my blood work has from eating healthier and losing weight.
Ladies, we are so lucky to have one another to turn to. We just need to keep it up and when we feel lonely, blog....someone will be there for us:) That's a comforting feeling.
Blessings and happy scales....or break the dang scale...and eat! Kidding!

Zumba, Zumba!

This is why my husband is so skinny...it is 9:04 PM and he is out washing my car. He  never sits. I sit a lot. I mean I really do sit a LOT. I think if I would get off my a$$ a little more, I could lose faster. I did go to zumba today and it kicked my behind! I was 20 shades of red for about an hour.
If anyone did pray for me and my daughter, it worked. We had a pleasant lunch and then shopped a little. She told me she doesn't dislike me, I am just annoying. OK??? I'm annoying??? She is 23 years old and quite immature. I am just trying to get through the next day without a big blow up that I can't take back. When I asked her to take a picture with me you would have thought I asked for her first child. Seriously, it is hard! But as Rosie said, she is probably stressed and holding it internally. I just wish I wasn't the punching bag. Boo hoo...get over myself. She will be gone for at least 8 months so I can suck it up. Her twin brother will be here on the 27th. He will take a picture with me:) How can you have 4 kids, 3 that like you and one that thinks you are annoying???? I guess it could be worse!
Since I am a good mom, I went to lunch where she wanted to go. We went to Tomato Street which is an Italian place. I hate going there because they have bread that I just can't leave alone. I did better today than usual, but I was a VERY bad girl. I also had chicken parm again. I ate just a teeny bit of pasta because I had eaten so much bread. We then went to a new yogurt place and I had frozen sugar free strawberry yogurt. It is really cool because you add all of your toppings and then you pay by weight. I added some slivered almonds, black berries, and redi whip. It was only 2.02, so you can tell that I didn't add much yogurt. My daughter's was 5.00. I tried to find how to calculate it on my tap and track but I couldn't find sugar free? Fat free, but not sugar free? Anyone know? I can't wait to get on the scale in the morning and start crying!
I just had cheerios for breakfast, but my lunch I wouldn't even guess how to calculate. Dinner was 2 hot dogs in the tortilla that gives me great fiber. Dessert was fresh raspberries and cool whip. Tomorrow I am having an early dinner with my friend that worked for me years ago. I have visited on facebook with her, but I haven't seen her in about 6 years. I am really excited. She is an amazing girl! Still single at about 40 and all she ever wanted was to get married and have kids. How does that happen?
Blessings and happy scales!!! OMG, I had a bad food day!

Zumba tomorrow!!!

I am so excited to go back to Zumba tomorrow. I have missed 2 weeks now. I am hoping it will jump start my metabolism again. I am excited to see my Zumba buddies too.
Yesterday I enjoyed laying in the sun and then going to Anniversary dinner with my hubby. It was a nice peaceful day.
Food yesterday...
Breakfast: sandwich thin with 2 eggs, 3 bacon
Lunch/dinner: Olive Garden...Zuppa soup, 1 breadstick, 1/2 my chicken parm and  little spaghetti
Dessert: Blackberries and 1/2 Clemmy O.
Today Food...
Breakfast: 3 eggs, 3 bacon scrambled in a tortilla...yummy! Good fiber!
Lunch: leftover chicken parm and spaghetti
Dinner: 2 pieces KFC....they got the order wrong and put cole slaw in, so I didn't eat any side. I didn't feel like a salad, so I just ate the chicken.
Dessert: Blackberries and cool whip.
I have been eating pepperoni sticks in between meals...not a ton, but I have. My daughter bought it and I can't stay out of it. Bad Kay:(
My Sailor daughter leaves Tuesday to go back to her ship and they leave port for 8 months shortly after. I have mixed feelings. She has been her usual difficult to like self, so it makes it hard around here. Egg shells are not my favorite things as the owner of the home. God Bless my husband! My other daughter's husband leaves for Officer school on Wednesday. I will be back to just having my daughter and grandson in the house. My husband is still working away. No news on the disability. He did finally get another appointment set up by L&I by and independent Dr. for another evaluation. He does that at the end of August. I think he plans to hang in there at work until then. He is a trooper about all of this.
Tomorrow I am going to have mother/daughter day with my Sailor. I am hoping we can get along for the day. I know she has a heart in there somewhere. We are going to lunch and shopping. It sounds so easy, but last time we had this planned we got in a fight before we left the house. Pray for me:) I want her to leave without any anger from either of us. Her twin brother will get here on the 27th. I am still sad they are missing each other:( Life happens I guess.
I am excited for the scale in the morning. It may look like I am being bad because of Olive Garden, but I have eaten soooooooo much less than ever before.
Blessings and happy scales....

144.2:) Down 21.2

I had a wonderful day yesterday with my lifetime friends. We were 12 years old when we met and since we are all now officially 54, that was a long, long, long time ago! My friends second home is on the river about 45 minutes from our homes. It was a beautiful day. Summer has come pretty late to our area so I think we saw 3 boats go by all day. The water was FREEZING cold still. I think it would have caused heart failure to jump in.
I was really good with my food and it showed on the scale this morning. It seems like the scale is moving really slowly, but I haven't done Zumba for 2 weeks and I really haven't missed out on any meals! It was a birthday celebration so my friend had made 2 different kinds of cupcakes and another friend brought yogurt. I did not eat any of them. I did eat some 4 cherries that were to die for. The hostess had a pasta, chicken, spinach salad that was quite tasty. I wasn't feeling deprived at all. In fact I was rewarded by a comment about my will power. My one friend that I was always competitive with (you know the one you fight with all the time and then kiss and make up) is a certified sports nutritionist. We had a lengthy conversation about what I was doing and eating. She agrees with the whole idea about sugar being bad, but not all sugars. She said the sugar in fruit and the sugar in milk were good sugars and I shouldn't count them in my daily sugar counts. She also said the amount of fruit I am eating a day is probably not enough to get in my Vitamin A and C. I don't take a multi-vitamin...I know dumb, I take fish oil, magnesium and Vitamin D, but not a muli? She also said that now that I have gotten rid of most of my belly fat, which she agrees limiting the sugar definitely works for, to rid myself of the rest of the weight, I will probably have to cut back on my calories too. I know she is probably right about the calories. I respect her opinion and since she is nationally certified as a sports/marathon trainer and has a masters in nutrition, she probably knows what she is talking about. Do I want to cut back on my calories? I will think that through. We do TOTALLY agree that whatever we do to lose the weight has to be something we can live with for the rest of our lives. Many of the current diets, HGC, Dukan, eat for your blood type, etc....are more restrictive and would be hard to incorporate into your average daily life. I know that I have come so far in this journey, but I see the pics of myself from yesterday and I just see the big girl from Christmas. My bust measurement hasn't really changed a lot so it seems I am just big in my upper body:( Ugh.
Yesterday was my 11th anniversary and I didn't even get home about 8:00PM. I have a very sweet husband. Today is dinner day and we are probably just going to The Olive Garden. I am not really into fancy places.
He has been outside mowing the yard while I have been laying out in the sun and playing on the computer. I am a bad girl!
Yesterday's food:
Breakfast: sandwich thin with PB and jelly on 1/2 and butter and jelly on 1/2
Lunch: taco dorito's, spinach pasta salad, and about 12 little smokies minus the crescent roll.
Dinner: Bacon mayo and sandwich thin
Dessert: cool whip and 2 squares of dark chocolate. It really is growing on me!!!
Blessings and happy scales!

I had an interview!!!

I had a job interview today. I was so proud of myself for going, being out of my comfort zone and really enjoying the process. It was to sell shoes at a high end shoe store for a  small family business that is looking to expand. I did not say I wanted the job, I kind of put the kabosh on it when it was 40 hours a week. I don't want to work 40 hours a week:( When would I blog:) I was more than happy to be in consideration if they are looking for someone part time. The owner was only 27 years old. I used to sell 1000.00 art, I don't know if I could sell 100.00 shoes? I don't want to sell shoes:( I just wanted the experience of the interview and I am really glad that I did it. They were very sweet and they have their work cut out for them.
Tomorrow I am going to the lake with my school friends. I am excited because it is supposed to be sunny and 80. I love sunshine!!! I was going to bring something BFC friendly, but I ended up getting little smokies and crescent rolls. I will just peel the crescent roll off and dip in mustard. Yummo! There will be plenty of choices of food to eat. When I was making the plans to go I kept thinking....July 15th? What do I have on July 15th? Well it is my 11th anniversary! Whoops! My husband will be at work all day so he doesn't feel bad. On his job front, his company has agreed to do everything they can to keep him working. It is really good of them, but he doesn't want to keep working. I have to just pray the right thing will happen. I enjoy the perks of his job.
I don't think I have mentioned that my twin son is not going to be here when his twin sister is here. He is getting here the end of next week. She is really hurt that he didn't make it home in time. I am stuck in the middle. I am really looking forward to seeing him. He is always my loving son:) I am sad for her because she is hurt. Ugh....I will not have all 4 of my kids together and I don't know when the next time they will be. It is a major bummer. Her ship will be out for at least 9 months.
Today's food....I am LOVING the tortilla's. They have totally helped me in the fiber department. Thank goodness!!!
Breakfast: sandwich thin with Peanut butter and jelly on 1/2 and butter and jelly on 1/2. I really love the natures' hollow raspberry jam.
Lunch: tortilla wrapped around turkey, bacon and mayo. A teeny bit of mac and cheese that I had made with heavy whipping cream.
Dinner: 10 little smokies dipped in mustard
Dessert: 1/2 clemmy o's with some raspberries. It was like a raspberry sundae.
I also had a piece of the ghiradelli dark chocolate. I really am getting used to it.
Blessings and happy scales:)

Short and sweet:)

Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon sandwich thin
Lunch: Chicken and La Victoria Salsa with spinach in a tortilla. I'm getting so good with my spinach:)
Dinner: Spinach salad with steak and ranch and chili cheese fritos.
Dessert: Raspberries and cool whip. 1 dark chocolate square. It is growing on me!
It was quiet around here today and it was nice:) I was able to clean a little of the tons of clutter. My granddaughter is still here, but she's pretty easy. Give her my laptop and she is happy.
Not much to say today, but keep at it....We are all winners that are still blogging and hanging in. I am so grateful for all of my BFC buddies!
Happy scales and sweet dreams:)

144.6 Woot!

So I am at my all time low. I was so close to 21 lbs....I hope I don't go up AGAIN!!! Down girl, down!!!

I had my 3 grandkids here all day. I honestly am exhausted, numb exhausted! I don't know how women have babies at older ages and survive. They were pretty darned good all day, but it is the over stimulation after being here by myself for the last several months! Tomorrow they are all going to a local theme park and I will have the house to myself most of the day. I am so excited:) My granddaughter Cadence will be 12 in September. I really want to establish memories with her so she still wants to hang out with Grandma K when she is a teenager. She's pretty cool.
I made my Sailor daughter's favorite dinner today. She loves this chicken casserole that has cream of chicken soup, milk, cheese, elbow mac and chicken. I used 1 cup of heavy whipping cream instead of skim milk to cut down on the sugar content. I only ate about 1/2 cup of the casserole which is 1/4 of what I would usually eat. The heavy whipping cream really made it creamy and good. I was also a bad girl at lunch and had digiorno pizza, thin crust. I put double toppings on 2 pieces, again, 1/2 of what I would have eaten before. I did go to the store and get the Ghiradelli dark chocolate. It's good. Not milk chocolate, but good.
The tortilla's do not say they have sucralose in them. I checked. The fiber worked wonders for me, so I will continue to add them to my menu. Moderation:)
Breakfast: toasted sandwich thin with a teeny bit of peanut butter and the Nature's hollow jam. YUMMY:)
Lunch: 2 crusts of thin crust digiorno and 4 toppings.
Dinner: chicken casserole
Dessert: Blackberries and cool whip. 1 square of dark chocolate.
Blessings and happy scales:)

145.9

It's good right?

Yummy!

I am still not back down to my 145 even, but I am close and I am really trying not to bum myself out. Yesterday I found these tortilla's. I don't remember if anyone had talked about them or not. I know they are flour, but they have 13g fiber. I LOVE them. They open up a whole new world of food for me again. They are a little spendy, I think 5.40 for a pack of 10, but I can eat them and they don't taste nasty. I need a good source of fiber too. Between these tortilla's and the chocolate, I feel normal:) I also broke down and bought the Nature's Hollow jam that was spendy, but I am excited to have it on a sandwich thin with some butter.
Today's food:
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sand thin
Lunch: Chicken and mayo tortilla, yummy!
Dinner: 2 hot dogs in a tortilla baked so it was crispy with mustard. 5 chips.
Dessert: Blackberries and cool whip 2 squares of chocolate.
If my calculations are correct, I got 26 grams of fiber in the 2 tortilla's!
I still have part of my thin nut bar, a little is good:)
I babysat both of my grandson's most of the day. Tomorrow I have all 3 grandkids together and then family dinner here. It should be a fun/crazy day. We are also going to a water park and I am going to wear shorts in public. HUGE step, HUGE!!!
Blessings and happy scales:)

Happy Sunday:)

I thought I was thin here:) 

 We booked our trip:) 12 days in paradise! Woot!!! I was about the same weight as I am now in 2009 when we went. It is exciting to know that I have a new lifestyle that will allow me to get smaller.
I decided that my fear of triggers when eating a dark chocolate or ice cream are tamed. I have had the Clemmy O's and haven't craved real ice cream, so today I bought some dark chocolate. I am not sure it tastes very good, but it is chocolate. I couldn't find the ghiradelli, so I got endangered species. I also got a think thin crunch bar that is 3 sugars and 16 carbs for the whole bar. It is chocolate covered nuts and it is an A+. I only ate 2 little bites, I plan to have bites so it is barely countable. 1 square of the chocolate seems plenty. Has any one tried to melt it?
We had KFC for lunch today. Yummy....
I have to watch Big Brother now, so...Blessings and happy scales:)

Hubby and me

View from our lanai

Amber's Blog totally re-inspired me!!!

I know I am a lot older than Amber, 12 years to be exact...but her before and after Bikini pictures makes me really want to kick into high gear. I have come so far in the way my tummy looks, I may never be able to wear a bikini again...having twins didn't help that....but I know I can get smaller and more fit looking. I am freshly inspired!
We are booking our Hawaii trip this weekend. 2 weeks in paradise. I would love to buy a bikini at the swap meet there, and actually wear it this time. We are leaving mid to late September, so I have time! I can do this!
I have not lost any weight lately, was getting a little discouraged, but then I remind myself that this is a permanent lifestyle and maybe I will look like Amber!
My daughter and husband went to a wedding for the weekend and so it is just my Sailor daughter at home. It is quiet without my grandson running around. He is just the sweetest little guy. He will be talking to me and all of a sudden lean in to kiss me. It melts my heart! When I say talking, I use the term loosely, he is only 20 months old!
Friday food...
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 3 bacon, sandwich thin
Lunch: Turkey sand and a couple of chips. dill pickle slices.
Dinner: Hamburger patty, spinach salad with salsa and ranch dressing.
Dessert: 1/2 clemmy o:)
Today it is beautiful and sunny, but not too hot. I look forward to laying in the sun and finishing my book. Lee Child is one of my favorite authors! If you love suspense books, he is amazing. My husband will mow the lawn and then it will be time to have our date dinner. I am thinking Mexican sounds good.
Blessings and happy scales:)

4 month anniversary! Down 20.5 lbs

I am so proud of myself today! I can honestly say, without even a little bit of a white lie, that I have not cheated with sugar one single time in 4 months. I have eaten too many carbs at times, I have pushed the limit with some higher sugar fruits and my general chicken, but I have not been tempted to eat a single piece of candy or anything. I haven't even eaten the after dinner chocolate/mint that comes with your meal at the Olive Garden! What an incredible miracle. The weight has come back down from being bloated and I have the fiber under control today. I am feeling good. The weather is beautiful today and the sun is shining in my heart:)

I just filled up the kiddy pool for my grandson. I am looking forward to laying in the sun this afternoon. Maybe I will even jump in for a quick freeze. 

So the last 2 days I have had lunch dates with friends. On Tuesday we met at a pizza place and I piled all of my toppings on 3 crusts. I was hungry and I was bummed about the weight gain. For dinner I had a hot dog on 1/2 bun and spinach salad. I ate raspberries and cool whip instead of my yummy Clemmy O. 

Yesterday was The Olive Garden. I had my favorite Chicken Parm lunch. The Zuppa soup and a ton of Kale in it so I feel like that helped my fiber for the day. I only had 1 breadstick and 1/2 my lunch. I ate the rest for dinner, but still did not eat all of the pasta. So I think they give you like a cup of pasta and I had about 1/4 left when I threw it away. That my friends is progress! I ate 1/2 of a Clemmy O for dessert. The scale smiled on me this morning so it didn't seem to hurt my progress. 

I know the weight loss has really slowed down, but I am not giving up or going back to my old ways. I am too excited to see what the future brings. 

My daughter/husband and grandson have been here for 3 days and my Sailor daughter gets home tonight. So far, so good. My grandson does keep me on my toes. He also sleeps until about 8:30 so I have quiet mornings. The house will soon be overflowing:) 

My husband should find out Monday during a conference call about his job. He is so ready to be done. I just hope and pray that he can get his full mobility back. It has been 5 weeks since the HR gal said I will call you Friday and let you know. Ugh! 

Blessing and happy scales to all:) 

This is where I spent the 4th.

This is the amazing views of the home that we were at for the 4th. This is her husband doing chip shots on their custom golf green. There is a picture of the actual green. It includes a sand trap also. Very cool for golfers. I didn't get a very good picture of the front of her house, but it has a portico that you drive under to stay out of the rain, snow, etc. Gorgeous house and beautiful people. The Mach I Mustang is my husbands "garage" ornament. It only comes out a couple of months a year. It is a 2003 and I believe it has less than 6000 miles on it. I don't understand the mentality of the car, but I guess since he doesn't have children of his own, this is his child. The picture doesn't do justice to all the special add on's that the car has. I told him if he chromed the inside of the hood that he was in BIG time trouble! News flash...no KFC...BBQ burgers instead:) 

Self discovery:)

So I was still up 3.5 lbs today. I had a great time at the BBQ I went to yesterday. I ate a hot dog with 1/2 a bun, chips, and hot wings....lot's of hot wings! When my husband was on his second plate of "dirt dessert" and everyone was breaking out their ice cream bars, my husband went and got me 5 more hot wings and I ate them all. I know they are a lot of calories, but they weren't sugar! I really did try and encourage everyone to give the BFC a try. I went to lunch today with friends that did notice my weight loss :) and I tried to get them to try the BFC...they all say they would rather not eat dinner than give up their sweets. I guess I would have said that years before too. That's what I have always liked about the WW diet. There was nothing forbidden, you just had to account for it with points. Truly on the BFC nothing is forbidden, you just might only get 1/2 bite:)
I think I may have discovered why I had the weight increase too. I take a different BP medicine in the summer because the one I usually takes causes hives when I am in the sun. I started taking the new meds last Thursday which is shortly before I started watching the scale climb. I haven't changed in my measurements so I am hoping it is just water retention. I am really HOPING it is just water retention!
I cut my Clemmy O in 1/2 last night and it was the perfect amount and my tummy did not get upset. I wish I could find more Clemmy's ice cream somewhere close. It is amazing!
I won't be having Zumba this week because they are refinishing the gym. I am just going to have a down week and then kick in high gear next week. We had pizza for lunch today and tomorrow is Olive Garden. I am guessing that hubby and I will be going to Kentucky Fried Chicken for dinner tonight. The house was cleaned today so I simply can't mess up the kitchen...that's my excuse and I am sticking to it!!!
Blessings to all:)

Up 3.5 lbs:(

I am not in panic mode yet:( I guess this is a lifestyle change. I really don't feel like I have cheated that bad to justify a 3.5 lbs weight gain. I have eaten too many carbs, but still no processed sugar sweets. We are going to a BBQ today that will be a challenge,but I know I will find somethings I can eat and I will enjoy the day. I really am struggling with getting enough fiber. I started taking the magnesium, I take my metamucil capsules and I really don't know what else I can do:( I just can't eat whole grains, yuck!!! I keep thinking if I eat something that I shouldn't that maybe that will stimulate my system. It doesn't:( 

My daughter moved in yesterday. The first day is going good:) We have a parade in our neighborhood every year and he thought the firetrucks were pretty cool. He did not want to get sprayed though. 

I found some really yummy Clemmy's ice cream O's yesterday. It was my first taste of ice cream in a very long while. It was really good but the malitol did give me a gassy tummy. They were also 2 carbs. I need to figure out how to safely cut them in 1/2 and rewrap without freezer burn. 1/2 is more than plenty. They have very dark chocolate on the outside which was yummy too! 

Happy 4th everyone:)  

I'm not in panic mode yet:(

Back up:( 146.2

So I had 2 days of the bad scale and it makes me frustrated. I really haven't been perfect so I shouldn't be totally surprised. I still have not cheated on extra sweets since March 7th, but I probably eat more carbs than I should. I think the less I have to lose, the harder it is going to get to take a lb off and then keep it off. I did go buy some Magnesium today just in case that does help some. My jeans fit better, I don't have fat rolls to speak of, but I really want to lose at least another inch off my waist. If you ever wonder how far you have come, hold the measuring tape where you used to measure and see where you are now. I was 39 inches just above my belly button, today I am 33 1/2, I hold the tape out and I see what a difference it makes. I am not giving up!!! Just a little frustrated. This weekend should be interesting with food. No big plans, but my hubby has 4 days off and I don't tend to cook very often. I'm excited to try and find Clemmy's ice cream, I would like to buy and ice cream maker, but I am unemployed and I should be good:(
So today I had my usual breakfast...but for lunch I went to Safeway and got general tsos chicken, almond chicken and chow mein. I ate very little of the chow mein, mostly just picked the celery out. I looked on my tap and track and it appears that the general chicken has at least 5 sugars. Of course it didn't specifically list Safeway's version. For dinner my husband brought deli fried chicken home and I ate it with spinach salad. In the past I would have eaten 1/2 a loaf of french bread and potato salad with the chicken...that's progress. I did have my berries and cool whip. I made lemonade Koolaid with the sun crystals and it tastes refreshing. It's a nice break from all of the ice tea I drink. So, that was my day. I can put it in the record book. I am starting to think the best thing that will happen to me is for my grandson to be here. He is like a whirlwind and I will get exercise just chasing  him around the house. He was in rare form tonight:) I believe move in day is tomorrow. Pray for me for patience:)
Happy scales to all....I kind of like that saying...I need that saying!!!