I have been back at Zumba for more than a month, have really watched my S/C values, have been pretty perfect on the sugar, carbs not so much.... and I am still at the same weight I was a month ago:( A month ago I was eating as many cookies as I could get in my body, not working out at all, eating whatever and whenever I wanted.....I expected instant results, I am getting little results. I think I had shared that one of my rolls was gone, and it is, but I still have more. I feel like the extra weight hampers my Zumba abilities, it hampers how I feel about myself, it hampers my "feeling good".
The "mature" part of my brain tells me that I am 56 years old. What do I expect? Am I going to let a 10 lb weight gain over the course of a year make me crazy? Unhappy? Unlovable? Unattractive? I weight 143 lbs for gosh sakes....I weighed 164.5 when I started this journey??? I get so down on myself and then I go places and I see women heavier than myself really "owning" how they look. Do they obsess when no one is looking? I have VERY dimply legs and my upper arms are getting bad too. You can't firm skin. FACT. I have very thin skin, which means I have very few wrinkles on my face, but it means my fat shows through. UGH!!!!!
I am really struggling with getting fiber in. When I actually use myfitnesspal, I am shocked by how little I get. I do take magnesium and that helps a lot, but I know real fiber would be good for me too. Really the only healthy thing I eat is my spinach when I can stand it, and fruit. UGH again!!!
This week is a crazy week, so I am going to just keep, keeping on. Next week I am thinking of starting a mostly meat, veggies, eggs, and fruit plan. I truly do not want what I weigh to be my degree of happiness. I have come so far with getting rid of my antidepressant, cutting my blood pressure pills in 1/2. I can't let 10 lbs defeat me. I refuse!
Oh, and it appears that my DIL pregnancy was chemical again:( She is so unbelievable sad that I don't even know what to say.
Have a wonderful 4th! Count your Blessings!!!
So sorry about your daughter-in-law. Such a sad sitution. Don't worry about those 10lbs. I haven't even reached my goal, but I know that I am healthier now and I just keep going. Giving up the bread isn't as hard as it seems. I made some of the different muffins and breads using the other flours. I eat all the sandwiches like burgers and such without the roll. Next I'm going to try and give up potatoes as I find I am substituting them and corn for the carbs I'm missing in bread. Just trying different strategies to keep my from slipping up so much. You know it's always going to be a lifelong battle, so I guess we'd better get used to it!!XO!!!
ReplyDeleteVery sorry about DIL. Sometimes I feel like you, not about my weight - cause I think its good for my height, but about the skin thing. I can SO relate!!
ReplyDeleteWhen the skin gets so stretched out from being fat before - it will never bounce back - EVER!! No bikini for me EVER.
To be honest at my age - who wants to wear one anyway. I except me the way I am dimply thighs and all.
Like I always say just put your clothes back on and look in the mirror again. LOL
Have a great 4th :-)
Sorry to hear about the chemical pregnancy. ;( I know how it feels to be wishing for quicker results, but at this size we have to work hard for those last 10 pounds. whew!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about your DIL, that is tough. I have been there too.
ReplyDeleteYou how far you have come, you look amazing. Keep it up and don't fret about your dimples & your arms. You are rocking the Zumba classes !!!
I too am struggling with the fiber thing, I am adding in more and more each day.
Happy 4th !
Aw, sorry about your d-i-l.
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