Off track today:(

Quick house view

WAKE UP K before any damage is done!!! I have been a slug who has been very blessed to keep the scale in the 133 range. Am I losing muscle mass? Probably...does it help motivate me? Heck no! I have a very flat bottom that needs to be lifted. My jeans all hang down in the butt. The fact that we just bought them about 6 weeks ago, doesn't make my husband all excited to go buy more. UGH!!!

Together Forever:)

I got my beautiful necklace today! It is called "Together Forever" and I LOVE it! My wedding ring is Gold, but I wear a lot of silver so this works perfectly. The packaging was really, really, cute...down to the inside of the main box being turquoise.

The next picture is our "messy" hall tree. We surround it by tall Santa's that we have collected. Santa hasn't come upstairs yet! My husband leaves this tree in the entryway until Spring. Makes me nuts!!! It has snow on the branches and is showing it's age. It was our first Christmas decoration as a couple 11.5 years ago!

And finally, the living room tree that is supposed to make it look like we have a tree in the window, but our big tree goes in the family room. It hasn't made it upstairs yet either. Baby steps, just like losing weight!
They still don't know what is wrong with my little Sis. She is still in the hospital, having fun ordering food and feeling pretty good.
My Taryn, soon to be former Sailor, is leaving the ship tomorrow. It can take up to 5 days for her to get back to the U.S. So many mixed emotions about that. The great thing is that she qualifies for 6 months of health insurance so she will have resources available for mental health if she so chooses.
I also saw that American airlines filed for Bankruptcy yesterday so I wanted to get my ticket booked to Columbus GA to visit my daughter and Karson. I got a killer deal! The first time I was checking it was 50,000 miles to travel to Atlanta which is 1 1/2 hours from Columbus. Yesterday I got flights direct to Columbus for 25,000 miles total! Wow!!! I can do another trip in the future:)
I was a BAD girl today and went to Safeway to get my General Tsos chicken, almond chicken and chow mein. I ate 1/2 for lunch and the rest a bit ago. Sugar/Carbs off the charts! Oh well....tomorrow is another day. Well, it may be tough because I am meeting German JoAnn at Olive Garden for lunch!
I just drink tons of water, tons!!! I always have a glass of ice water sitting by me. All day long. Water, ice tea and the occasional diet soda when we eat out.
I mentioned on Katie's blog about the low carb flours, like carb quick on netrition? No one has mentioned these? I know they are higher in price, but so is coconut flour?
Oh, and one more exciting thing...I commented on Jorge's recipe today and he "liked" my comment:) I'ms special!
Blessings and Happy Scales

I did it! I did it! I really, really did it!!! 32 lbs lost!!!

Happy:)

I am so excited! I have to say that part of the reason could be the news about 6:00 last night that my little sis is back in the hospital again. It stole any appetite that I may have had:( They still haven't determined what is causing this latest infection. We are headed up to see her later today. I have to say that walking back into the hospital after what happened the last time, is giving me a lot of anxiety:( I hate allowing my negative feelings to get the best of me. Ugh:(


Today is Sunday and that was written yesterday. We did go to the hospital, of course my brother showed up, but did not come in the room, which is good. Kristi is still there this evening and they still don't have any idea what is wrong with her. I told my husband we need "House". Like I said once before, she loves the food at the hospital so it may be OK for her to be there for awhile.

I went to a Stella and Dot (jewelry) party today. It was a lot of fun to be with friends:) I bought a necklace called "together forever" as a gift from my husband! Isn't that nice of him and he didn't even know it? It's his birthday tomorrow and he bought me a gift! Since I was dressed up, it was picture time:)
There were Deer everywhere on our way home. I had to drive like 20 miles an hour to make sure I didn't hit one. I stopped and took a picture of one on the crest of the hill. I thought it was cool. They don't even run away when you stop the car, get out and start taking pictures. That's not really a good thing!
I hope everyone had a good weekend!
Blessings and happy scales!

Sharing an article!

http://www.womentowomen.com/healthyweight/splenda.aspx

I am starting to want to branch out and eat some goodies so I have been scouring different sites, and pinterest looking at recipes that are low sugar or Stevia. There is a microwave coffee cake recipe that I would love to try. I wanted another opinion on whether Splenda is really bad. I believe that Spenda has a brown sugar substitute. Brown sugar would really work on some of the things that I am craving. Cobbler, Coffee Cake, etc. This article is really, really good. It does give all the info about Splenda, but all the other artificial sweeteners too. And because Jorge is so smart, it ends with Stevia and what a good choice it is.
For my wine friends, she does say that wine is sugar? I have always thought that, Jorge doesn't? I'm no expert for sure.
I really think  there is a lot of good information in this article and wanted to share with my friends!
I hope everyone is recovering after yesterday? I had more stuffing/turkey/gravy for my breakfast/lunch! I am weird I know. Heavy on the turkey, trust me:)
It is an absolutely beautiful day here today. A little windy, but the sun is shining. It almost makes me want to leave the comfort of my home and go shopping....NO!!! I really don't know what I would shop for. We are really going to stick to a budget this year and it limits any random shopping. I did get some things at AE yesterday at 40% off and free shipping:) I have already gotten all of my Navy daughters gifts (no news from her on her separation?) because they had to be mailed. Kayce and hubby want an IKEA gift card so they can buy things for their new apartment, and my grandson is getting money towards an airline ticket to come and see me!!! Maybe the other grandparents will do the same! Now that he is 2 it is a full adult ticket:(
My older son/wife/grandkids, I am thinking of a family night at a hotel that has a water park. I have noticed the past few years that my grandson who is 4 and my granddaughter who is 12 are kind of bored with opening gifts by the time they get to my house. My 23 year old son(twin to the Navy daughter) relies on me to get him new clothes every Christmas...thus the shopping on AE. We don't buy for my siblings and it is cheap/not even worth wrapping or opening/ crap that we exchange with my inlaws and family. Ugh..it is so stressful to find something that is 10.00, equally as stressful to look like you like what you got that was 10.00 and crappy makes you happy. I know that is mean, but I wish,wish,wish, we could just be together without unwrapping stuff that goes straight to my storage room. I usually get the women Bath and Body hand soaps so it is at least something they will use. The men get socks, warm and sport. Any other cheap ideas that anyone wants to share?
I do appreciate all of the recipes and ideas that everyone has had on their blogs, I was just curious about expanding since I am at goal. Last night I tried making a cobbler with some fresh blackberries and my coconut flour that I have left. I have come to the conclusion that the coconut flour (I got it out of a bin) is bad. It was a microwave cobbler recipe that was easy to adapt with the Stevia, but it was not edible...my husband won't even try my concoctions anymore:( I ended up with my Blackberries, cool whip and Joseph's sugar free cookies crushed on top and it tasted amazing! Especially after the nasty taste of the cobbler!  I think I am going to try some Almond flour. I also need to buy some Almond Butter. I spend so much money on fast food and won't spend 8.00 on Almond Butter at Costco? Really???
Thanks for reading this long and boring blog.

133.6 Woo hoo!!!

Tummy's flatter:)

Tummy's flatter:)

Woot!!!

I am happy with my new weight. I am so close to 32 lbs total. I started at 165.4 and I am 133.6. Dang!!! Now that the Holiday's are on the way, will I ever get there? Last Christmas I got myself up to 170 lbs. Wish me luck.
I have wrapped my head around where I want to be and what is worth eating. I would like to hit the 32 lb loss mark, but today is a good day!
It was just hubby and me for dinner today. We went to Safeway and got one of their roasted Turkey breasts out of the Deli. It is perfect and I LOVE the skin. Then I made stuffing with a little onion, celery and chicken broth. For the gravy I bought a big chicken breast, browned it and then slowly simmered in chicken broth. I use gravy packets for flavoring. It was especially good this year! I also had a  pan roll that tasted like Heaven! I am looking forward to some fresh blackberries and cool whip later for dessert. I didn't over do, but I didn't under do either! I feel good about today.
I know it is random to take a picture of my tummy, but I am still surprised when I look down and it doesn't look like I have a growth there. There was a pocket of fat right above my belly button, kind of like an extra gut roll that measured 39 inches when I started BFC, it is now 32. My waist was 33 and is now 29.5, thighs 22.5 now 20.5. I have even lost .5 in my calves which have never lost before! I have gone from a 38C in my bust to a 34DD. These are all reasons that I am making good food choices!
Am I bragging? A little bit, but I hope I am also offering a reason, to keep on going because this program really does work! If today was a bad day, it doesn't mean tomorrow has to be.  Each day that we make good choices is a good day, but a bad days does not mean defeat! Truly as long as we keep trying, no matter how slow the weight loss is, the more successful we will be.

This is the view that Kayce has out her back window of her apartment in GA. It was 71 and sunny there today! Karson got to see his Daddy yesterday for the first time since July 2nd. Pretty excited for them:) 

I hope everyone had a great day:) 

Blessings and Happy Scales!

Chocolate Flourless Cake Recipe

http://www.genaw.com/lowcarb/3minute_flourless_chocolate_cake.html

This is the blog for the chocolate flourless cake.
I used the full cocoa amount and spoonable Truvia just like it said the first time I made the cake. It was way too much chocolate and way too much sweetener. My next cake that I made was with 1 TBS cocoa and 1 TBS spoonable Truvia and 2 packets of Stevia. I'm sure you could adjust it however you want. I also softened the butter for like 10 seconds and beat the egg and butter together.
It is very quick and very easy and I had all the ingredients just looking at me:)
It will definitely cure any chocolate cravings!

It's a new day:) 134.3 today!

Flourless microwave cake ingredients

Today is a new day! I am actually in my home alone for a few days for the first time since July 2nd! Hubby is traveling and Kayce and Karson are safe in their new home in GA. I have to say, it's not too bad:) So far. It snowed quite a bit today and if it does again tomorrow, I will have some major snow removal to do.

I made the flourless chocolate cake again today and I think it turned out really good. I didn't even get the cool whip out. I could only eat 1/2, which is probably a good thing. It does have a dense texture, very much like pudding cake. I cook it for exactly 60 seconds and it doesn't look totally done, that's why I think of it as pudding cake. Today I used 1 TBS cocoa and 1 TBS Truvia+ 2 packets of Stevia. I did not use the baking powder. If you want something that is chocolate rich...this is a good one!
I really believe that I continue to be successful on the BFC because I have learned to only eat things that I really want. I know that may not work when you are on the way down, but it is working for my maintenance. I do think I still pretty much stay within the 15/6 per day. I am still eating my spinach and taking my vitamins. Lunch today was a bacon and spinach sandwich on grilled sandwich thin. Bacon and I made up and are back together again, now I am a little tired of sausage! I had a can of Campbell's chicken noodle soup for dinner. I know, white carbs:( But it is a "memory" food for me, and easy peasy!
I am excited to see how the Holiday's play out. I only have a few Christmas parties, so I am not usually very challenged.
I am making a turkey breast, stuffing, mashed potatoes with spinach and gravy for Thanksgiving. No rolls:( No fruit salad, no pecan pie:( I guess I could cut up some strawberries and make a spinach salad? Hmmm.
It will just be Marv and me. So simple, easy day.
Thank you all for putting up with my drama. I have come to realize how incredibly blessed that I was when I owned my gym and had 40 women a day or more to run through my life issues with. There was always someone with worse problems, or great ideas. I really, really, really miss them:( We also solved all of the political problems of our Country. We were a very smart group of women!
Blessings and Happy scales....

Yummy!

God is AMAZING...

OK, let me first say that I fall short as a proper Christian woman. I don't go to church, which eliminates my worthiness of being a Christian to some of even my dear friends, and I don't read the Bible daily. But let me tell you girls, I would NEVER have survived my life without my deep and unwaivering Faith in Him, in my Savior, my Helper, my Friend, my Confidante. I owe Him every bit of sanity that I still have. With that being said, these last few weeks have been a challenge on so many levels. One that I haven't shared much is about my Sailor daughter. She has been desperately unhappy and I got a horrifying call at 11:00 at night (the same night I was booted out of the hospital) with her telling me that she had 5 minutes to tell me that she was having some major issues and to contact someone who could help her. They are out in the middle of the ocean. Thank God for Kayce because first thing the next morning she contacted the recruiters office and then I was able to contact the ship ombudsman, and Taryn was helped. In her words she got the first hug that she had ever been given by a "khaki". I would love to hug that woman and someday be able to tell her how much I appreciated knowing my daughter was being listened to. Life in the Navy and out at sea has been really, really hard on my daughter. I knew it, but I didn't know how extremely unhappy that she was. The good news??? My email last night said not to send her Christmas box, that she was getting out of the Navy and coming home? What does that mean? How can that be? I have no answers at all, but I know that Someone else does and I will live with it. The really bizarre part is the Christmas box. I have had it ready for about a week, but didn't have the address. Yesterday it was ready, packed, addressed and I took it to the post office. The poor postal worker was by himself with a line of about 10 people. I waited about 40 minutes for him to tell me that the APO address was wrong. He couldn't help me find the right one because there were still so many people in line. I left with that box feeling like such a failure....then I got the email last night that said not to send it. I know none of this probably makes any sense, it really doesn't to me either.....but I have felt at peace all day.
She is 23 years old and is making adult decisions and I guess I have to accept that.
So, on to the good news. My husband offered today for me to use our flyer miles and go to GA to visit my daughter. I don't know when I will go, but I know I can go, and that is an amazing feeling!
Job wise, all good. He is for sure employed through March 2nd and then we will see.
BFC wise, since this is my BFC blog, I am weighing in between 134.1 and 135. I think this morning it was 134.4 again. I can take that. Last night I made a flourless chocolate cake from a low carb post. It was supposed to use splenda, so I used Truvia. I see great potential in the cake. It had heavy whipping cream, butter, cocoa, Truvia, an egg, I forget what else. I added way too much cocoa and way too much Truvia, but it came out of the microwave very similar to a pudding cake. I put some cool whip on and ate a little bit. It sure cut my chocolate craving. It was chocolatey!!! I am excited to try it again because it was made from things that I always have here and not specialty ingredients. Again the microwave factor is really cool to me because it is instant gratification!
Thanks for reading this lengthy post. Today has been a day of thankfulness! I have no real answers, but I know I am being taken care of:)
Blessings and happy scales!

This looks awesome!

http://247lowcarbdiner.blogspot.com/2011/11/bacon-avocado-grilled-cheese-sliders-on.html

In case you guys aren't followers of this blog I thought I would post this. Can you imagine making a coconut loaf as quickly as you brew your coffee? Think of the possibilities! I have seen cake recipes done in the coffee cup. My favorite sandwich place has sandwiches that are round like a can, they hollow the middle out and then put all the sandwich fillings in. Yummy!!!
Dawn made my soup recipe....I am a famous chef now:)

Today is the day!!!

Today is the day my husband finally finds out about his job. Noon today he meets with the "big cheese"! We will be OK no matter what the news is, but the longer the separation package, the better! I guess we will be sworn to secrecy, so I won't be sharing. I will either be Happy or Bummed:)
 My daughter has made it to her new home in Georgia and she LOVES her apartment. It looks amazing on the website and in pictures. I would live there! Now I just want to visit there! I am very happy that my grandson gets to have a new bedroom, bed, toy room etc. I guess he was such a trooper. The last day in the car, yesterday, he finally said "Mommy my bottom hurts, will you kiss it?". They had been stuck in freeway traffic just 17 miles from their exit to their new home for 2 hours! I bet they all slept really good last night.
 My little sister is supposed to leave the hospital today and go back to the nursing home. She had stints put into the tubes leading to her kidneys. Hopefully she will continue to get better. She does have MRSA? I have no idea how that plays into things.
Today just may be a day of closures and less stress! Wouldn't that be something?
I just talked to my hubby and he is pretty nervous. 20 minutes to meeting time! He said that on the radio this morning he heard that a woman can only keep a secret for 20 minutes, so he said if we aren't supposed to talk about it, I better not! I think I can last over 20 minutes!
Thank you all for being on this journey with me. Every day is a good day unless we quit!
Damn Starbursts:)
To celebrate I went to Zumba this morning:) It kicked my behind, but I went and I will go again on Monday.
So yesterday was extremely stressful, the build up to today....so I ate a whole pack of Starbursts. They weren't even worth the calories, but I ate very last one. Today the scale was up over 2 lbs!!! I am not worried about it because it could just be a blip. A pack of Starburst and 2 lbs weight gain...holy crap:)

134.1 Today!

I am still losing, not really trying, but my heart seems to be in a constant state of aerobic activity. I was much happier today than yesterday...I feel like I have company in my doldrums!
I made soup tonight for dinner and I put it in the BFC tracker and it definitely falls in the BFC guidelines. Here's my yummy soup recipe....don't fall over in shock.....A recipe from K:)
4 potatoes cut into cubes
1 can Swanson Chicken Broth
1 stock of celery
Ham cubes
About 3/4 cup Heavy Whipping Cream
Saute celery in butter until soft, (can add onions and garlic too...I don't).
Add chicken broth and potatoes and slowly simmer until soft.
Add salt and pepper to taste, slowly add Heavy Cream.
Can serve with bacon bits and sour cream. (I didn't)
This makes quite a bit and it tasted so good!
It is even better on day 2.
That's as good as it gets folks:)

Blessings and happy scales!

OMG, this could have been written by me!!!

I was enjoying the Pinterest site, looking up low carb/low sugar recipes and I came across this blog site. This particular post...if you take out the cooking part...is EXACTLY how I am feeling right now! I thought it was funny, I hope you do too! Velvet Lava Blog...

I am so sick.

Of myself.

Do you know what I mean? I'm just fed up TO HERE with me. I feel 
boring, uninspired, whiny, ridiculous, apathetic, and just TOTALLY 
BLEH. I feel like white bread looks. Just meh. Seriously, I wish 
someone could just reach through this screen right now and slap me, 
wake me up. Or, bring me pills.

Is it a stage or something? Or am I seriously just this meh bleh eh 
meh? I look at my camera and shrug and go meh. I look at my stacks of 
cookbooks and think about what I could whip up with those babies and I 
go meh. I look at my dogs who want to go for a walk and I go meh bark 
bark meh. I look at my phone and think about all the peeps I could call 
for a chat and I go meh. It's just meh meh meh meh meh. Oh my god, 
someone pull my head out of my ass before I whine us all to death. What 
a snore I am!

I just loved that because it was exactly what I was thinking. I am becoming obsessed with my problems and I am not doing what I know will make me feel better....talking to friends, exercising, getting out of the house:( 

My little sister is still in the hospital and I have talked to her, but have not seen her. She is slowly getting better, but quite frankly, I think she is happy to be out of the nursing home for awhile. She is loving the food at the  hospital and the tons of choices she has on the menu! She has always had a catheter and that seems to be the problem area. 

My husband is waiting to hear if he has a job or a separation package. It is so stressful. Even though he is OK if he gets the separation package, he will still be 57 year old and out of a job:( The packages are based on 

years of service and since he has 25 years in, it should be at the higher end. Ugh! They (management) were in Seattle today, I'm surprised they haven't notified him of a meeting yet? 

My daughter was almost to Kansas when I talked to her about an hour ago. Thank God for cellphones. They have traveled about 12 hour days for 2 days. I guess Karson keeps asking to just go home to Gma K's house. That breaks my heart:( I know he should be with his Daddy, but I will miss him so. I am hoping we will be

heading to Georgia in February. 

So, as far as food goes...I am so proud of me. I had some Joseph's sugar free cookies in the freezer so I 

Hawaiin sunset! Missing it:(

made a yummy dessert last night. I warmed some raspberries, crushed some cookies on top and then topped with cool whip. It was GOOD!!! 

So I have sufficiently whined, thank you for reading. I need to get my butt out of my house and get a grip!!! I am being a recluse! 

134.5 Down 30.9 lbs!

I know, I desperately need a pedicure!

134.5, Have I weighed that since I first met my husband? Nope:) Would I rather have less stress and weigh a little more? Yep!
We are now officially empty nesters again. My daughter and grandson left this morning for Georgia and a new life. I will miss them, but they have my heart! I had family dinner last night and it was chaotic.Kayce's good friends came with their 2 children ages 3 and 1. My sister brought her 2 grandchildren ages 3 and 18 months, Then Karson, 2 and my grandson Cy, 4. That was a lot of kids:) It was fun, but the quiet today hasn't been too bad yet.
I made a spiral ham, baked beans and mac and cheese, salad with eggs, tomato and olives (that's new for me) and my sister brought rolls. I had a roll with ham and a couple of bites of beans before I realized I was eating solid sugar and some salad! There's still one piece of caramel apple pie staring at me. I was too wound up to eat! Maybe that's a good thing?
This morning I made ham, spinach, tomato and cheese scrambled eggs. They were yummy...actually that was lunch! For breakfast I had a leftover pork chop and gravy on a piece of bread. My days are going to become more and more confused with the quiet around here.

I think I am still too tan:( 

Please pray for safe travels for my Kayce and Karson! Good thoughts are appreciated too:)
With Thanksgiving on the way I am thinking about all of the yummy food that we will have to decide if we want to eat it or not. Katie had asked about stuffing and whether anyone will eat it? I will, I actually add spinach to mine so I feel like it is a little healthier. You really can't taste the spinach, but I could see if you were having a big crowd, how the green would be a turn off!
Christmas goodies are going to be another matter. We all have to keep each other strong! I don't care if I lose any more weight, but I don't want to gain 5 lbs either.

Karson set to go!

I haven't really made any of the treats you have all posted since I tried  my first batch of coconut bread. There are so many cool blogs that have low sugar/low carb goodies and ideas. I am really loving pinterest! Sadly most of the recipes that I pin are definitely not BFC friendly, but someday...in small amounts! I really love key lime pie, I wonder....there was a recipe today for lemon curd that I should have kept, I could just make it with lime juice....Hmmm...I need to go find it again! It used egg whites and liquid stevia...I think:) I wonder at times if using sugar free jello or pudding would be such a bad thing? I drink way more diet pot than I should? I know....the answer is NO:)

A final note...we had our windows cleaned last weekend thinking we would be good to go until the spring. It snowed yesterday, hard and blowing, today is clear and very windy so all of the moisture is dried in spots all over the windows:( Bummer! It has been a beautiful sunny day. My daughter has been gone about 6 hours, I wonder where they are? 

Blessings and Happy Scales! 

135.1 Woot:)

New low:)

Thank you everyone for your kind comments and your encouragement in the past week. It has helped in many, many ways! I love reading the comments and losing myself in your blogs. I really like having this "sisterhood". That's why it is important that we share whatever is on our mind! That's how we actually get to know one another.
I'm excited about my weight, but stress isn't the way that I wanted to lose. Hopefully I can just maintain here for awhile without any swings up or down. My clothes basically fit exactly the same so I am not seeing any difference in how 136.5 feels vs 135.1.
A couple of observations. I have been so healthy "cold" wise. My grandson has had a cold off and on, my husband has had 2 colds, my daughter was sick with a cold for about a week, and I have escaped them all. I hate to even type that in case I jinxed myself. I don't know if it is the way I am eating or the vitamins that I am taking? Whatever is working is good!
I have also decided that not being a "snacker" is a good thing for me. If at that end of the day calories in/calories out do count....I am saving calories each day. I am just not hungry between meals.
I have been able to eat everything that I want to eat and surprisingly, what I want to eat, is not the goodies that I used to eat! My daughter has been on a baking frenzy and I haven't even been tempted. One of the goodies that I wanted to find a recipe for was the chocolate no bake cookies. She made some of those yesterday and I wasn't tempted to have any. It is so weird to me!!! I don't feel like I can't have it, I feel like I am making a choice not to have it.
I can do this for the rest of my life!!!
 I went to get my eyebrows waxed today and my friend Cheryl said "well it looks like you are keeping your weight off, I have gained all of mine back but 5 lbs." She had done a mail order diet thing, not Nutrasystem but similar. She had lost about 20 lbs. She carries all of her weight in her bottom. I encouraged her to try mine, but she said she doesn't really eat that much sugar anyway. I always come back with the amount of sugar in skim milk. She wasn't interested in trying it??? My daughter gets tired of me talking about it, so we just left. I know that Cheryl eats a lot of sugar because we worked side by side for 5 years!!! She had a skin care room in my gym. Silly girl!
I am trying to enjoy every day with my grandson. They are scheduled to leave for Georgia on Sunday morning. We are having family dinner here on Saturday. I will miss my grandson desperately, but I know that life goes on. He is gone this evening and I pointed out to my husband how quiet the house seemed. It will be a big adjustment to have just the 2 of us here again. Kayce and Karson have lived here since July 1st.
I think I want to take a road trip and stop and visit everyone. I think it would be a fun dream to meet each other one day. Why not? Dreams come true, I met my husband:) Rosie has the best weather by far, and a pool! I vote we go visit her:! That will teach her to be so helpful and encouraging every day! Everyone would be more than welcome here. My husband calls it Snokane instead of Spokane. He got his new snow blower today so he is ready for our winter weather. The ONLY reason I am looking forward to the snow is so I can wear my UGG boots every day, all day. They might be ugly, but they are more comfortable than bare feet!!!
I will end with an update on my sister. My brother does have the power to ban me so I have not gone to the hospital. She is getting better and my husband has visited her. I keep in contact with her boyfriend. I had to let it go or the anger and hurt would consume me. Our family is pretty screwed up!!! Well, my brother is pretty screwed up. Prayers are still very much appreciated and I totally believe they helped in getting her out of ICU. We are certainly not out of the woods yet. Today they are having to gown up again before going into her room. They checked her for MRSA before, and she didn't have it? Are they thinking she got it in the 5 days she has been there? Ugh!!!
Blessing and happy scales!!!

Thank you, thank you!!!

Kristi is out of ICU, not out of the woods yet, but she is turning a corner. When I was kicked out yesterday her lungs were starting to get fluid in them, so this is GREAT news! Thank you for letting me share a story that should be private, but I needed to tell someone.
Pattie, I have every intention of following your advice about talking to the hospital. I will be there visiting her tomorrow. I will.
To all of my Dear friends, I have read your blogs to keep my mind busy, but can't find a single thing to say so I have not responded. Let me just tell you all that I am so Blessed to have such beautiful, smart, fun, funny, encouraging, compassionate, happy women in my life. Thank you...truly...thank you!
I finally ate something after I found out she had been moved out of ICU.
Now can I celebrate that I finally hit the 30 lb mark? Wow and yay!!! Not exactly the way I would ever suggest to anyone.
We may not have met in person, but I think the world of all of you! Sisters?!
OMG, I can't keep the smile off my face:)

135.3 Down 30.1 lbs.

Thank you for all of the prayers and good wishes for my sister. She is not doing well and it is very hard to watch the decline. I was banned from the hospital today by my brother Satan because I told him he emanates evil and called him a piece of shit. He threatened to ban me last night because he didn't like me advocating for my sister about what an earlier nurse had said about giving her a medication that would be bad for her even though it makes her totally knocked out. My mom had heard every reason the day nurse had told us that it was bad to give Kristi the med and my mom would not stand up for Kristi against my brother. I pray to God that I never have a weak wimp advocate for me when I need help someday. I am broken hearted and thinking only of pure hatred that I have for my brother. Whatever I say to him should have no baring on what I have done for my sister. The first night her IV was draining into her arm instead of the IV and if I hadn't caught what was happening her arm would have blown up. She was in so much pain and I begged until they got her comfortable. Did I mention my mom had already left because she was tired? I spent the night from hell watching her beg my mom to let her go home and asking if she was going to die. My brother is a sick and sadistic man who has divided a family, but it has been my mom that has allowed it. I may lose a sister, but I have definitely lost a mother. I would fight to the death with a Dr. or nurse for my children. I'm sorry to share this with my BFC friends, but who would believe such a sick story? Who would believe you could have someone banned because they were mean to the brother of the patient?
I am a loving, compassionate Mom, friend, wife sister. I am losing to Satan and I feel helpless:( How does evil win?

ICU:(

My little sisters system is septic and she is not doing well. I am so sad. Spending the night at the hospital and saying lots of prayers.

137.5 Whoops!!!

My sister Krist, Kayce and Karson

I knew the scale was not going to be my friend this morning! It has been a food filled couple of days. I think it it will be fine when I get a chance to drink some water and flush my system. Halloween was a fun day at our house. My daughter and I took my grandson to the nursing home that my sister lives in to Trick or Treat. The residents lined up in the hallways and handed out candy. Please Lord, don't make me live there someday:(  I met my Dear friend JoAnn at the Olive Garden and then home to make dinner for my family. Both grandsons were here to go around the neighborhood to trick or treat. It was fun until my 4 year old grandson told one of my neighbors that he "didn't like that kind of candy"! Ugh:( My husband LOVES to hand out our Wrigley/Mars candy because all of the kids rave about how cool he is! "The Bomb" was a favorite!

I had gotten to here in my blog and got a call that my little sister was taken to the emergency room for stomach pain. She has no feeling from the waist down, so it must have been some pain. Several hours later...now...it appears that her abdominal cavity is infected. I am waiting for someone to call so I know what is going on. Stressful! She has never really felt pain like that before so I am sure it was very frightening for her.

Prayers for her would be greatly appreciated.