142.8 on Saturday, then ate Dickies ribs on Sunday.....

I was at 143.5 this AM. That's about 2 lbs different from my high. I have been REALLY good for me. Last week I cooked most days and it is so much easier to be good. I am eating a lot of spinach since I don't like any other green veggies. I am actually kind of getting used to it. I also did another change, I went back to the multigrain sandwich thins. I think my decision to just start eating white bread may have been a bad one. I know, I know....but....I will still have it someday. I actually don't detest the taste of the thins as bad as I did when I gave them up. They are so easy to use, and they allow for an additional bit of carbs with the meal. I am eating my ice cream every day, may be a mistake, but it is a nice treat. It has been HOT!


We have eaten at Dickies BBQ often since it is close to our home. I love the meat, I love the HOT bbq sauce. I use very little because it is so HOT that I would be blowing my nose through the whole meal. Yesterday my hubby bought a full rack of ribs for us to share at home. OMG, I ate until I couldn't eat anymore and then had more for lunch today. They don't show as sugar, but they do have carbs. I LOVE MEAT!!! I have also not given up potatoes. I am eating either really small ones or 3/4 of a medium one. I could be wrong again, but I did lose with all of my decisions. I could easily eat like I have the past week forever, easily! I also am consistent with my Zumba and honestly, I feel wonderful. I feel like I am truly getting a grip. One week in, I feel GOOD:)


We got our Hawaii entertainment book today and looking through it makes me more excited to get there. Hubby accrued 11 nights worth of points from his job. The plan is to go in October and I truly can't wait. We are just waiting for our Alaska companion ticket code and we will book the trip. My heart gets very happy thinking about it! Another good reason to try and lose more weight. I really, really, really would love to be below 135. We will see, I'd love to have a firm body too, and that doesn't happen!!!

New Zumba shoes, I replaced the black laces with lime green and love them!

Blessings and happy scales....

143.4 Quick update!

Up early for Zumba and happy that I have been very good for 4 whole days! We did an all day lake day again yesterday and it was wonderful! I think I may be dark enough and better lay off the sun for a few days:)
I am very happy to see the weight loss, but it is still higher than before I went on my eating rampage. It takes so much longer to lose it, than to gain it:( REALLY??? Like that is a shocker?
The only fast food I have eaten in the last 4 days was the inside of a crisp taco on my spinach leaves for dinner. That my friends is a miracle, and makes my husbands wallet really happy!!!

Blessings and happy scales for the weekend ahead! Feeling successful!

Marv looks pretty good for a 58.5 year old man:)

Day 2 Success:)

What a wonderful day and what a wonderful way to feel when I have stayed on track! We went to my son's lake park today and enjoyed the sunshine and my grandkids! I helped Cadence conquer the fear of doing a back dive, and Cy is just a water bug this year. I actually was the cool Gma out on the dock, hanging out and laughing. I LOVED today!!! I am probably a bit too tan, but what the heck, I'm old! Tan cellulite looks better than white cellulite!
Breakfast: 2 eggs, sausage crumbles and 1 cup spinach (yucky spinach)
Lunch: Black forest ham sandwich on 3/4 of a roll with mustard. 1 teeny taste of a frosted animal cookie (waxy)
Dinner: Petite Sirloin steak, 2 cups spinach, ranch dressing and 7 chili cheese fritos crushed.
Dessert: Butter Pecan ice cream.

Cy is diving:) 

I am seriously joyful today because I have been good 2 days in a row. Gosh it feels good! It's 7:30 in the evening and I am all GOOD!!! I know I have started over many times, but usually with a half hearted attempt. This time feels different and it really helps to not have any lunch dates with friends this week! 

I even ordered new Zumba shoes last night to get me going. Woot!!! 

Blessings:) 

OK, one last thing...

Anthony Weiner is DISGUSTING!!!

Cadence at 13 is not into having her picture taken!

Cy humors me:) 

145.5 Yikes again!

Well I have eaten my way back up to a weight that is REALLY not comfortable in my clothes. If I want to buy all new pants, it's doable, but I don't! So....I started over today:) And I was GREAT all day!!! I am so proud right this moment, that I want to savor the feeling for when I let myself down, which I am sure I will. The difference between some that have gained, lost, gained, is that I am still here, plugging away.....and I WON'T GIVE UP!!!! The middle of last week I was so excited because I was back down in the 142's. Then came Thursday and a trip to Texas Roadhouse, Friday was Pizza Hut's new flat bread pizza's, Saturday was date dinner at Dickey's BBQ (I wanted more ribs) Sunday was potato salad, you know the food I recently blamed on my weight gain? Really??? I actually just made myself giggle by what a food dork that I am:) So today, I am back on track.
Breakfast: 2 pieces of bacon pre-Zumba (I usually have 2 pieces on bread)
Lunch: 2 eggs, sausage crumbles, spinach scramble (I usually have a sandwich, more bread)
Dinner: BBQ Steak and one crisp taco from Taco Time, minus the shell + extra spinach with ranch dressing. (We usually have a crisp meat burrito and 2 tacos)
Dessert was 1/2 cup No sugar added Dreyer's Butter Pecan ice cream. Now...that would not necessarily be BFC approved, but that is part of what I am going to do different. I am going to allow myself some artificial sweeteners in things that are just too darned expensive to buy in BFC approved style. I looked at Clemmy's ice cream at the same store that I bought the Dreyers, it was a much smaller contained and was 6.99. I got my Dreyer's on sale for 2.50. I just don't know if I believe that artificial sweeteners are going to be the death of me. And it was DEFINITELY not artificial sweeteners that I have been over eating. I am also going to limit my fruit, but not omit most of it. I have been eating cherries, and even watermelon at times. Very small amounts, but it is one of the only things that I eat that are healthy. I am going to eat a lot of meat. I am going to try and stay away from bread carbs.  I am going to keep my calories down. I am back to logging on myfitnesspal, and I am still doing my Zumba 3 times a week. I am also going to savor my food and not stuff it down my face like there is no more meals coming.
Wish me luck!
Blessings and Happy Scales:)

144.3!!!! OMG....I'm growing!!!

OK, so you think you have this whole BFC thing down. You are so smart that you know where hidden sugars are,  and you know what you can and can't have. (I'm talking about me) And you gain, and you bloat, and you wonder what in the heck??? And then all of a sudden, it dawns on me....maybe because Rosalie's voice was going through my head...."you can never go back to eating like you used to." I have been eating a crap load of sugar and it wasn't cookies! I have made home made potato salad 3 times and I have eaten it like there was no tomorrow. What is in it that has sugar? Sweet pickles, juice and Miracle Whip. Sugar...sugar....sugar. I use 4 sweet pickles and they are 8 sugars each! Yikes!!!
Maybe it is my old age, I forget? Or I just didn't care at the moment or moments....many moments!

The 4th of July we had a wonderful day at my husband's brothers house. It is about a 3 hour drive from our home, but a beautiful day. It was truly one of the best meals I have ever eaten at someone's house. And I ate! When we were finishing dinner someone asked what the steak had been marinated in, Yoshida Sauce! Sugar!!! Of course I had already eaten 3 pieces! UGH! There is no where safe!

Fireworks viewing from the freeway!

We almost stole this Kitty from my sister in law!

So I am just keeping on with trying to rediscover my passion for the BFC. I am still going to Zumba regularly. The only day I have missed is when I got all the way there and my tummy revolted. Kind of embarrassing to leave before the class even started, but I am used to embarrassing myself! I literally leave there with soaking wet hair, so I know I am at least getting healthier. And the weight gain is not muscle:( I would be smaller, not bigger.

Even with the weight gain and the anger at myself, I am quite happy! It feels good to be happy, weird for me actually. I am trying not to stress about things that I can not change. (Which is 99%)  You won't believe this but my daughter in law has still not had a period and her pregnancy tests are still positive. She is waiting another week to go for another ultrasound. I know she is protecting her heart, and she has way more patience than I would have. God Bless her!

I have a super busy weekend. Friday is lake day with my lifetime friends, we are going up the the lake Thursday night, so it will be a lot of fun. A wedding shower Saturday and a baby shower Sunday. My husband will miss me:) Monday is my 13th anniversary! Woot for me:) Sainthood for my husband!

I need to light a BFC fire under my behind!
Blessings and happy scales:)

Hello July and HOT weather!!!

I just read Pattie's post and she inspired me to blog what I have been thinking lately. Thinking is always dangerous for me, but I'd like to share a bit.

I have been back at Zumba for more than a month, have really watched my S/C values, have been pretty perfect on the sugar, carbs not so much.... and I am still at the same weight I was a month ago:( A month ago I was eating as many cookies as I could get in my body, not working out at all, eating whatever and whenever I wanted.....I expected instant results, I am getting little results. I think I had shared that one of my rolls was gone, and it is, but I still have more. I feel like the extra weight hampers my Zumba abilities, it hampers how I feel about myself, it hampers my "feeling good".

The "mature" part of my brain tells me that I am 56 years old. What do I expect? Am I going to let a 10 lb weight gain over the course of a year make me crazy? Unhappy? Unlovable? Unattractive? I weight 143 lbs for gosh sakes....I weighed 164.5 when I started this journey??? I get so down on myself and then I go places and I see women heavier than myself really "owning" how they look. Do they obsess when no one is looking? I have VERY dimply legs and my upper arms are getting bad too. You can't firm skin. FACT. I have very thin skin, which means I have very few wrinkles on my face, but it means my fat shows through. UGH!!!!!

I am really struggling with getting fiber in. When I actually use myfitnesspal, I am shocked by how little I get. I do take magnesium and that helps a lot, but I know real fiber would be good for me too. Really the only healthy thing I eat is my spinach when I can stand it, and fruit. UGH again!!!

This week is a crazy week, so I am going to just keep, keeping on. Next week I am thinking of starting a mostly meat, veggies, eggs, and fruit plan. I truly do not want what I weigh to be my degree of happiness. I have come so far with getting rid of my antidepressant, cutting my blood pressure pills in 1/2. I can't let 10 lbs defeat me. I refuse!

Oh, and it appears that my DIL pregnancy was chemical again:( She is so unbelievable sad that I don't even know what to say.

Have a wonderful 4th! Count your Blessings!!!