Where do I begin
To tell the story
Of how great a love can be
The sweet love story
That is older than the sea
That sings the truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start
With the first hello
She gave the meaning
To this empty world of mine
That never did
Another love another time
She came into my life
And made the living fine
She fills my heart
She fills my heart
With very special things
With angel songs
With wild imaginings
She fills my soul
With so much love
That anywhere I go
I'm never lonely
With her along who could be lonely
I reach for her hand
It's always there
How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now
But this much I can say
I know I'll need her till the stars all away
And she'll be there...
How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now
But this much I can say
I know I'll need her till the stars all burn away
And she'll be there...
To tell the story
Of how great a love can be
The sweet love story
That is older than the sea
That sings the truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start
With the first hello
She gave the meaning
To this empty world of mine
That never did
Another love another time
She came into my life
And made the living fine
She fills my heart
She fills my heart
With very special things
With angel songs
With wild imaginings
She fills my soul
With so much love
That anywhere I go
I'm never lonely
With her along who could be lonely
I reach for her hand
It's always there
How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now
But this much I can say
I know I'll need her till the stars all away
And she'll be there...
How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now
But this much I can say
I know I'll need her till the stars all burn away
And she'll be there...
STOP THE MADNESS!!!!
Am I the only one who remembers that song from one of the saddest movies of all time, Love Story?
OK, I can't even tell you why? What is in my head? But I believe that sugar/carbs are an addiction that takes a conscious effort to overcome. I have been out of control and telling myself that I am just a "little" bigger. Last week I decided that I was so done trying to lose again. I was pretty much eating anything and everything and maintaining my weight. I didn't want to have to "try" to fit into a size 6 pant anymore, I would just buy a size 8, and let it go. Sounds good right? Until I tried on the size 8 and they were too tight. Hubby and I went shopping yesterday to buy an outfit for a wedding that we are going to later today. I always head straight to the INC department of Macy's because I usually find something stylish and quality. I found one sweater that I bought, not in love with, but not a lot of choice when you are having a feeling "fat" day. It sure looked cute on the mannequin:) Then we went to Gap to buy the same pants I have had before, but in a larger size. Gross, Gross, Gross, Gross, Gross! I didn't like the pant color or pocket this year either. So we went over to American Eagle, I grabbed a size 8, walked up to the cashier and paid, and left the store to try them on in the comfort of my own home. They fit in the butt, and thighs, but of course, tight in the waist. I could have definitely used a bigger size. I am keeping them, and I am going to fit into them. Come Hell or high water! This fat around my waist is the cookies, no sugar added ice cream, Wendy's new frosty waffle cone, cake at Bunko, it's endless....I have had an excuse every week not to start because I have all these social situations that I have "first". Well, as Pattie said on her 100 post today, this is a forever process. How many times has Rosalie told us that? You can NEVER go back to your old way of eating. I went back, and she's right! I thought I could "dabble" and still be good 90% of the time. That just doesn't work for me at this point. It makes me sad, especially since the things that I have been eating, haven't even been my favorites! I haven't indulged on all of my dream sweets, I don't typically even eat ice cream. UGH!!!
We leave for Hawaii in 32 days, I have "things" again all week that will be temptations, but I did it before and I can do it again. Dang! And just being good with my Zumba? Doesn't work, it's the combination. I actually do better food wise when I am not working out at all. What? Yep, I always gain when I go back to Zumba after a long break. And no, it isn't muscle:( I have now owned my new Yoga CD's for over 2 months and I have done 15 minutes. I watched another 15, if that counts:( I can make every excuse in the book, but none of them makes this 10 lbs feel better or disappear.
So for now, I ask for your good wishes, your strength and you wisdom to get back on the road again. I can and will do this. I did it once, I CAN do it again!
Blessings and Happy Scales....
And yes, I'm aware that I'm a dork! My attempt at cool at my granddaughters softball game on Wednesday. I forgot the thumb part;)
ReplyDeleteYou look so pretty in that picture.
ReplyDeleteMy problem is in my thighs not the tummy. I really don't know which one is worse.
I know you CAN get your head right and get back in the BFC groove. Be strong - and ignore the FOOD BULLIES.
That's why I always make lots of healthy sweet treats. I need to eat something every day or I just might be tempted.
YOU CAN do it :-)
Go Kay! You can do it. Your blog was the first blog I found when I searched for BFC. And I agree with Rosalie you look very pretty in your picture.
ReplyDeleteGood Luck Kay!! You can do it. I know how you feel. Every time I go back to eating crap, my body starts hurting. I know it's telling me that I'm not doing the right thing. then I start thinking why oh why do I do this to myself!!!
ReplyDeleteKay, your picture is so adorable! We all seem to see ourselves in such harsher light than others see us. You hit on something that I always point out to people, such as my husband... If I'm going to cheat I do it with something that I truly, truly love to taste. Back in March I made the mistake of drinking with my s-i-l... gained 10 pounds in just two days. I've only lost 5 of that since March. While they tasted good, I've never been a drinker, and they weren't cheat worthy either. I, too, must have a goody on hand to help me stay on track, or at least, help me to maintain. I'm not as good of a low-carber as some. I eat apples. That's probably my biggest trouble spot. Love 'em. Unfortunately, strawberries are another trouble spot for me. I can't eat just two or three. No no no, must be half a pound over the course of a couple hours. But both of those choices are a hell of a lot better than a stinkin' Hershey bar. (And have you noticed, Hershey bars really do stink?!?) I think that having those more acceptable treats more often help keep me from piggin' out on the other stuff that I shouldn't have. Best wishes to you! Oh, to see a size 10... I haven't been there since high school. I'd love to see a size 12, though. While it may not be thin to many, that's where I FELT my best. Maybe your best isn't necessarily that size 8.
ReplyDeleteKay, you are just on a detour. Get back on the path. Reread some of your old posts. I was always amazed at how you socialized but still stayed on the plan. You can do it. You have to go cold turkey and t will be painful for a few days, but you can do it. I know you can!! XO!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Pattie. You will feel better again. And cold turkey is the way to go. ;0 I know what you mean. It's so easy to go from size 6 to 10 in a flash. Ugh.
ReplyDeleteWow, what a great picture Kay! You have such amazing energy and you will find your way! We are all rooting for you!
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