Lordy, Lordy....I feel big time over 40...wait, I am:)

The kids are down and I have some quiet time so I thought I would share a bit. I want to share what sugar does to my tummy....it makes it big!!! I have my 3rd round of key lime pie ice cream in the freezer right now. Not only am I eating 2 scoops, but it comes in a waffle bowl. UGH!!! When will this insanity end? Next Monday when I get home to my hubby. I seriously have been bloated and sickly and I am still eating junk.

Today we did a lot of shopping again and I found some cute things. My daughter turned me on to some linen pants that have a foldover waist that is all the rage. They truly are the most comfortable thing ever so I hope they wash well. I keep buying my grandson toys and expecting a different result...insanity? I buy them, he loses them....poof....money goes out the window!

It feels like midnight here and it is only just before 9. I truly give myself a big pat on the back that I was a single mom with 4 kids for many years and did not go insane. It is HARD work!!!

Karson's creative clothes

Trying to get a good picture!

We just played Yahtzee for the 3rd night in a row and I am the BIG winner for the evening. 3 yahtzee's in 2 games:) Woot for me!
Everyone has gone to bed and I am sitting quietly before I call my hubby. Cable was too expensive so they cancelled it yesterday. I have been so out of the loop news wise since I got here. I guess it may be a good thing? I get so mad at what is happening in this Country that it does alleviate some of the stress from things I can not change. I do miss all of my regular night time shows that I haven't gotten to watch. Dancing with the stars, American Idol *even though this season was bad* All of my soaps that I still watch! I am going to have a lot of shows to clear off the DVR!

My son in law had to do a 20 mile walk in the middle of the night last night so he is just now going to bed for the first time since Monday. I really don't know how he does it and still stays sane and still loves playing with his boys....and putting up with Kayce!!! She is a handful:) Tonight was the first time that there weren't 3 women and their kids out on the screen porch visiting all evening. These homes are like duplexes that were built many, many, many, many, many years ago! Dwight Eisenhouer (sp) lived down the street in one of them. Anyway..they all have the cool screen porches and they are kind of close together. They had new neighbors move in tonight and they already put up a privacy screen!!! I don't think that will win them many friends??? Army life is pretty interesting and you definitely have to learn how to make friends easily.

Blessings and hugs to all of my buddies:) Thanks for reading;)

I have eaten myself to the moon and back!!!

Just a quick update to say that I am having an amazing visit, but I am always too tired to think or blog at the end of the day. I stayed home while they all went to Church yesterday and I feel like I got some quiet time and rest. We are not going to the beach like we originally planned, so we are going to Atlanta for the weekend before I fly out. The kids will stay Saturday night and then I will go to the Westin at the airport and fly out early Monday morning. I am excited to go home, but sad to leave. The kids are just so darn cute and I just love them!
For those of you on facebook, you heard about my soldier for a day, but here's more pics. I am still sore!!! Fun, fun, fun....

I was hitting the soldier:) 

Konner:)

New really old house!

Varsity Drive Inn Atlanta (hot dog cheers)

Karson

Kayce and Me...*great hair! 

I have a sugar roll around my tummy...and it's been YUMMY!!!

I have been having a little to much fun!!!

142 This AM! Yikes!!! Well, Hell! Sorry, it just typed itself;)

I have had a wonderful week/few days. The night before my birthday I went with my HS friends to a restaurant on the river. It was a beautiful evening and a wonderful night. For those of you that are my facebook friends, sorry about having to look at the pictures twice!
I have been doing a lot of shopping for warm clothes to take to Georgia. I was thinking that I was going to have to buy a bigger size short so I wouldn't have my chub roll, but I found some today that fit pretty darn perfect. Kut jeans, nice fit. Now if I could suck my cellulite out of my legs, arms, and belly.....

Kathleen was my best friend since we 13! 

Spokane Falls, The Pavillion is the former site of Expo 74

It was interesting at dinner because my friend who I have always thought was the most beautiful, was really discouraged and saddened by her body. I was shocked, really? You are beautiful....and then I thought of how hard on myself that I am. I am NOT saying that I am beautiful by any means, I am saying this is me, I am blessed....get over myself!!! I will get back to my ideal weight of 135 again, someday....but not tomorrow. 

My birthday day was spent with my oldest son and grandson. He was his usual talkative self, NOT!!! Hubby and I went shopping without them 1/2 way through the day, I needed a break from starting conversations. Then my other 2 kids and Mom came over for pizza and it ended up being a wonderful evening. Life is interesting as I get older! 

Hubby and I went shopping for last minute things today and we had to get Kansas City bacon and pepperoni sticks for me to take to GA. I found out the pepperoni sticks are made onsite and have a teeny bit of sugar in 100 lbs. Cool....now if I can limit myself on eating them once I get there.  "Free for all food" is not going to do my body/self esteem any favors! 

My husband asked why I was so happy today? What a good question! I feel like I am letting go of things I can't change immediately, and counting my Blessings for the things that don't need changed today. Phew....is this part of getting older and wiser? 

Blessings and happy scales....

Not too big yet! Another hubby taking the picture and you would not want to see the look he got! 

2 weeks, no progress....

A RARE smile from Taryn:) 25th BD

Unanimous vote to get rid of my sweater!!!

We celebrated my twins 25th BD last Thursday. Taryn NEVER likes to have her picture taken so to get a smile was amazing. Notice the blue cups in front of them? They are both big time Avengers fans, Taryn is in love with Thor, so I bought them cups and plates. The waitress used the cups for their beverages:) I think it's pretty cute at 25 to use an Avenger cup! I was told under no uncertain terms to not mention it was their birthday, so my older son did it!!! The sweater I have on, I thought looked good, OMG, it was awful in pictures! My sweet son told me I absolutely did not look like the picture, but the sweater had to go. My husband took it back. I know that is bad, but I would have NEVER worn it again and it wasn't cheap. Matt manages a Snap Fitness and he is very fit and big. About 6'4 and 220. He assured me I did not look bad, but that's part of his job, to assure women they don't look bad! Oh well! My Taryn has the headband thing on because in November she had her dyed red hair, changed back to her natural blonde hair. The chemicals gave her 3rd degree burns and she has been trying to heal it since. She finally saw a wound specialist and she has to be wrapped all the time. It's in the back of her head about ear level. It's wrapped with an ace bandage under the scarf. The moral of that story is don't go from red hair to blonde! Thank goodness the gal actually got her hair close to her real color so she doesn't even really have any grow out.


OK, now to how  I am doing. I actually was up .2 this AM. I was 140.5. I dropped below 140 about 1 1/2 weeks ago, went right back up and have stayed here. I would be more bummed if I didn't know that the yo-yoing has come back to bite me. I also realize by looking at myfitnesspal, I have been 140 way more days that I have been under that. I can't seem to stay at 135 for any length of time. I have continued with my Zumba, I have continued making good food choices 80 % of the time, so I am doing what I can. I leave next Monday for GA and I am certainly not going to be at my goal of 135!!! Also at this weight, my cheeks are plump and it makes my wrinkles less visible! I am really trying to find the good in this!!! I turn 56 on Thursday and I have a lot going on this week food wise.  I am giving myself a break from obsessing. We are going shopping this afternoon and I may just try and find a better fitting jean so I don't have a fat roll. UGH!!!

Our weather has been gloomy and rainy. I got my sun chair out and enjoyed the sun for 2 days before it got crappy. My husband put the sun chair away yesterday and said it was jinxing the weather. His last day of work was last Friday and he is a very happy man! I am happy to have him around, he truly does make my life easier.

If you are reading this and haven't blogged lately, blog....if you haven't started a blog, start! If you want to enjoy the companionship of like minded woman, searching for the Holy Grail of weight loss....join us:) Weigh loss/weigh maintenance, it's all a pain in the behind!!!

Zumba, Zumba!!! I got home about 1 1/2 hours ago and I am still bright red!

How'd I do last week?

Well I would love to say that I had lost the required 1.75 lbs that I needed to get to my goal, but I did not:( I actually gained as of this morning. I did go to Zumba 3 days, I did log on myfitnesspal through Friday I think. I did make REALLY good choices, for me at least, and I am a gainer. I can be honest about some reasons why...
I ate 1 1/2 cinnamon rolls yesterday....we had an Easter brunch at my son's after he was baptized:) Happy for him....and my DIL made homemade cinnamon rolls. I NEVER have the opportunity to have home made rolls so I thought, what the heck? The first was so good, that I went for roll 2. I took a 1 1/2 hour nap when I got home, sugar lull!
We picked my grand daughter up on Saturday and she lives about 2 hours from us. We ate way too much and I didn't drink enough water because of potty breaks. The same with Easter Sunday, 2 days in a row with not enough fluids and too many bad foods.
I had too many calories!!! Until Sunday, I never went over my 15 sugars, went a little over on my carbs a few days, but I went way over on calories for my weight:(
I am hoping the scale will be down to the 139.3 that I weighed last Thursday by tomorrow.....I am HOPING:)
Some things I also learned...
The Atkins indulgence bars weren't the total cause of my overeating, I haven't had one in a couple of weeks and I still over ate.
I have sugar under control 98% of the time.
I NEVER get enough fiber.
I ate spinach all week last week and I still didn't feel healthier!
I WANT to lose the 5 lbs, but I don't know if I WANT IT BAD!!! UGH!!! I get frustrated with knowing in my head that "I am not that bad" weight wise, and wanting more, that is harder to maintain. A part of me just wants to buy some bigger pants and call it good. I'm in a mental struggle now. I tried on several size 6 pants on Saturday and they all fit, they just looked bad to me. I am almost 56 years old....UGH!!! The mental battle continues.
I am on my 5th week of being back to Zumba and that makes me happy but I see all of the young gals with beautiful legs and it bums me out to know that will NEVER be me again. I am not only struggling with my desire to lose, but getting older! Believe me, I am not ready to be old!!!  OK, enough of my woes for the day!
Have a great beginning of the week and wish me luck on figuring out who's going to win, little K or bigger K??? 2 weeks from today I will be hoping it is little K.